JESSICA’S POV

It was now month of November and it been months since we arrive here at EWS, H and I issue was also resolve, I was happy because Seung ah and H was now close to the gang also, and also I was happy because H accept my decision.

FLASHBACK

I went to H’s room to talk to her, Krystal was with her.

“H, can I talk to you for a second?”

“Hmm? Of course.”

“I should be going, Jess and best the friendship will still remain, okay?” Krys said

“Of course.” Me and H said in unison

I think she knows already what my decision was.

“Hmm? H…..”

“You have your decision, right?” She ask

“Y-yes.”

“And you choose her, am I right?”

I just nodded because I don’t know what to say for her not to be hurt  but I know anything I say or do her pain will still be there,  it will still hurt her so much.

“Is there really even a tiny feeling left for me already?” She ask and I know she was trying not to cry

“H, I still love you but not----“

“Like before?” She ask, her voice crack

“Yes, I love you but only as a friend now, you will remain one of the most important people in my life.” I said

And her tears fall down; she was crying already, I don’t know how to ease her face so I just hug her.

“Shh…..H, I’m sorry, I really not meant to fall for her so bad and fall out of love in you.”

“I know. *sob* It’s my fault after all.”

“ No it’s no one’s fault. Maybe it happened for a good reason.” She didn’t respond, she just cry there, I didn’t pull back and just hug her there tightly.

“J, even though you choose her can I still love you until I can let go you.”

“But---“

“Please, I won’t bother you or make things complicated, just please let me love until the day I can finally let you go and my feelings, you know I can’t just erase my feelings for you just like that.”

“Okay, I don’t know what to do just for you not to be hurt, I really am sorry.”

“Don’t be sorry, it will hurt more if you’re like that.”

“Okay, just know I’m still your friend, I will be here still, always.”

“Okay, let’s be friends again, like before. Because even just a friendship I don’t want to lost it also.”

I hug her still and she hug me back, and her tears is keep on falling until she fell asleep in my arms, I tuck her in bed, then kiss her forehead.

“I really am sorry H, but I love her.”

I left the room and I went to my sister’s room.

“Hello.” Krys

“Can you go back in H’s room? We are done talking.”

“So? What’s the result?”

“I told her that I choose Steph.”

“How did she reacted?”

“She cries a lot but she accepted it and she ask me to let her love me until she can let me go finally.”

“ Ohhhh…”

“Krys, she fell asleep while crying, can you be there for her, please take care her for me, I need to talk to Steph and tell her.”

“Okay, good luck, I hope she already fall for you like you did.”

“I hope so.”

“Bye.”

I hung up and knock on Steph’s room, Sunny open the door.

“Hey, is Steph was there?”

“Yes, she’s just taking a shower.”

“Okay, I can wait for her outside.”

“No, you can stay and wait for her here inside, she will take forever when showering. Let’s talk first while you were waiting for her.” I went it

“You can just sit there in the small couch or in the bed.” She said and I sit on the edge of the pink bed

“It so pink here.”

“It’s her favorite color, everyone knows it.”

We continued to talk and we’re laughing because she told me some stories about their childhood. Steph takes almost an hour to shower and because she didn’t know I was here she went out the bathroom with just a towel on, I blush looking at her.

“, what are you doing here?” Her eyes became wide

“I-I n-need to talk to you.” I said stuttering while I can’t take my eyes off her, she runs back to the bathroom

“Sunny, can you give me my clothes.” She said inside

“Hahahahaha.” Sunny was just laughing

“ARGHHH….SUNKYU.” Steph shouts

“I’m sorry Tiff; I just can’t help but laugh on your expression.”

She handed the clothes, I just stay there with my red face, I don’t what will Steph think of me because of this, but I can’t help but stare at her earlier, she’s so y specially when she blush hard. Then after sometimes she went out.

“W-what do you want to talk?” She ask nervous

“Hmm? I talk to H already before going here.” I told her and prevent myself to stutter

“Ohhhh.”

“I’ll go out first.” Sunny said

“No Sunny, it’s okay. You can be here, it’s not secret what will I tell her.” I told Sunny

“Yes, Sunny, stay.” Steph said

“Steph, I already told her that I choose you. She accepted it but told me that let her love me until she can finally let me go. Is it okay with you?”

“Why are you asking me? I don’t have a right to make some decision about that.”

“‘Coz you’re the one I’m courting and I love you, since I told you my feelings you already have any rights about it. Actually I said okay to her but if you’re not comfortable with I can tell her.” I said

“It’s okay Jessi, I understand her because her love won’t just fade away just like that.” She said like what H said to me

“Thank you Steph, so we’re okay now, right? I’ll continue my courtship.”

“You didn’t stop, right?”

“Yeah, I didn’t but you keep your distance with me.”

“I didn’t mean to keep distance I just don’t want to be too close until you have your decision.”

“So now that I made my decision we can go back on being close?” I ask her

“Yes.” She said and she blush again

“Okay, thank you.” I was so happy

“I was sad for Hara.” Steph suddenly said

“Yeah, I was also but Seo was there for her, we can help them be together.” Sunny said

“Thank you for the concern for her, if you’re planning anything for the two of them count me in, I want H to be happy again like before, I want to see her smile again.” I told them and I left after sometimes

END OF FLASHBACK

It’s been 5 months since I was courting Steph, and my sister suggested that it was time for me to ask her officially to be my GF, she’ll accept me right? 5 months was long enough for me to prove that I love her, but it took me a year before when it comes to H, at first no one knew that I was courting her but right now everyone in the EWS know I was courting her.

I ask Steph for a date this day because it was weekend and I prepared something for her like my sister said, she said yes for the date because she won’t go home because her Dad is on the business trip. I actually didn’t know her Dad until now, I want to know him for me to tell him about my feelings for his daughter, I want him to know I was serious about Steph. I plan t