At some point, I didn’t know if I even needed you
So you left
And we split ways like that

Maybe we had to prepare for a breakup
Without any emotions
We thought about how we would hurt
But even memories of that are disappearing

I brought it upon myself
Something that couldn’t be undone
I made everything so cruel
I ended up admitting
That it’ll all be the same
When I said it was over
We split apart

Maybe we had to prepare for a breakup
Without any emotions
We thought about how we would hurt
But even memories of that are disappearing

Maybe we had to love without any conditions
Thinking that I’ll be the first to hurt
All the things we talked about
It’s leaving just like that

Maybe we had to love without any conditions
Thinking that I’ll be the first to hurt
All the things we talked about
It’s leaving just like that

Maybe we had to leave each other
Without any sorry feelings
Our memories of love
Even our good memories
It’s all passing just like that

Sympathy - Jung Joon Young

It's finished. Game Over. We broke up.

After 1 year 9 months. It's been 2 months. I, Seo Joo Hyun, can say that I am single again.

But not without pain. He's still in my heart, and I don't know what to do. I tried everything. Even alcohol. Me, the perfect student, tried alcohol for the first time to forget him. Did it work? Yes and No. I had fun during the night (thanks to my unnies who guard me) but the pain came the next morning, along with a headache. 

How do know you're falling in love? Or falling out of love? He said he stop loving me. How? It hurts, I'm not sure I want to know. 

Now I do regret not asking him. He was my first everything. I don't know if it means something for him (I thought it would) but it does for me. And here am I, still thinking about him. I wonder if I'm still on his mind, or does he has some regrets, leaving me. 

I think I can say that I'm over him. Burying myself in work and school helped a lot. I secretly wish to see him again. I avoid him as much as I could (which was not so difficult cause we didn't have any schedule our two groups together) but I still followed his comeback in secret. I still listen to his songs dedacated to me. I still wish he could embrase me and say "I love you" to me. I miss his warm, I miss his smiles, I miss him.

Okay, maybe I'm not as over him as I thought I was....

But what can I do? He told me "goodbye".