Bad day, looking for a way home,

looking for the great escape.

Gets in his car and drives away,

far from all the things that we are.

Puts on a smile and breathes it in

and breathes it out, he says,

bye bye bye to all of the noise.

Oh, he says, bye bye bye to all of the noise.

Doo doo doo doo doo noo noo

Doo doo doo doo doo noo noo noo noo

Doo doo doo doo doo doo doo

Doo doo doo doo doo doo noo noo noo

Hey child, things are looking down.

That's okay, you don't need to win anyways.

Don't be afraid, just eat up all the gray

and it will fade all away.

Don't let yourself fall down.

Doo doo doo doo doo noo noo

Doo doo doo doo doo noo noo noo noo

Doo doo doo doo doo doo doo

Doo doo doo doo doo doo noo noo noo

Bad day, looking for the great escape.

He says, bad day, looking for the great escape.

On a bad day, looking for the great escape,

the great escape.

Patrick Watson – The Great Escape

I thought I was okay, that I was over him. It has been more thana year. I need to move on but I feel like I'm still looking out for something. I even met someone to help me forget. Okay, it's work-related bu we never know: he might be the one I need. He is willing to give us a chance. However I'm not sure I'm ready. The pain of losing someone make the heart more scared and thus, the relationship more complicated. 

Especially since the first and second guy are the same.

An unquired love, I guess. But seriously, how could I fall again in love with my ex? Maybe because it's Jung Yonghwa. The one and only CNBLUE's leader. Maybe it's because he is the only one who gave me such detail attention. Maybe it's because it wasn't real the first time. Maybe it's because I don't know anything about love. Too much "maybe" and no answers to fill the blanks. 

I can't read his mind. Am I a friend, a lover? The answer scares me. Because I wouldn't know how to answer. I did consider him as "mine" while we were on the show. He is my first love and probably my last. I tried to forget him... only to fall again in an afternoon. He only needed one stage, one interview to break my walls and fall again. I was wrong, it will always be him. 

Can we meet again? As collegues? Of course. As friend? Probably. As lover? ... 

The only thing I am sure of is that I, Seo Joohyun, found my great escape: Jung Yonghwa.