Not the rookie anymore after the first promotion. Not quite.

And not feeling quite so much the clown when we're out in dress uniform. It was embarrassing how much it felt like costume. And for how long. The field uniform I got used to in days. The band getup not so much. I suppose knowing that we're performing didn't help. Having to got and get fitted for it didn't help either.

But it is different from costume. It is different from getting ready to go on stage.

We're expected to be turned out to a T all the time, regardless what time of day it is, where they've sent us or what we're doing. And nobody runs after you to check that you pass inspection or all your buttons are done up. We have to do that ourselves.

It's one very good way to train yourself not to fidget when you're uncomfortable.