Should I say I am a simple minded person? I am always positive and very cheerful. It’s very easy to make me happy. I laughed at everything and to anything. But if you know me…I laughed at small things even to things that are not laughable at all just to get away the awkwardness and to make people comfortable.  And when I’m sad, the more I laughed harder than my normal loud laughs… I saw those tender expressions before. Your piercing stare that melts…stares that I wish could only be directed to me… You never hugged me that way…with fascination that seems to melt your tiredness at the end of the day…You never was so intent in listening the way you listened to her yesterday… Was it just my imagination? Was it just my insecurities? Was it just me? I stopped on my track when I saw you two inside a café on my way to Nana’s company. You said you were busy wrapping up things before our Bali trip before you left my place the other day.  My heart tells me that it was not you…but my eyes works like laser and recognized you even from across the street. I have happy plans for our anniversary. I know we are very young and at the very early stage of our relationship but I consider it a good news…with my naivety I thought it’s going to be a good news!  I am not sick and I don’t have vertigo. The doctor said it was a big OH! But now I realized…I realized from the deepest of my core that it is going to be a big Uh oh!!!   KAY