I woke up the following day feeling sore everywhere. I stayed a little longer lying on my bed while listening to the sound around the apartment. I refresh my memory of what happened last night and even in the wee hours of the morning when I woke up to your gentle caresses and soft kisses. You weren’t saying anything but I could sense that you’re in deep thoughts. I am curious of the things that are bothering you but I don’t have the courage to ask. I am afraid to know about them and much more hearing you say you’re sorry and what happened to us was a mistake. 

I want to feel secure and in control of my world even just in my mind. I am aware that my reality is blurry and my future with you is unsure. Since we crossed this line, my mind will have a hard time accepting that we are just friends. Friends don’t do what we did last night and friends don’t hurt each other, right? I grew up strong and independent and I don't wish to control you just because you had me... deep inside though I prayed that just for today, or just this hour, please be with me.  At least make this day special for me…just this day?