KANG HAEMIN POV

 I walked to him slowly. I feels my leg slightly trembling. The cold wind hit my face as I getting nearer.

"Baekhyun.." I said gently,

"why are you doing this ?" I ask as I feel fear raked through my heart.

I see his lonely back view, its hurt me so much knowing he's trying to commit suicide.

He didnt respond to me at all, but then he take one step forward. Making everyone at the back screaming. 

"NO ! Byun Baekhyun please !" I scream, I see his hand slowly turned to a fist. "dont do it.."

I take another step forward to him, "..please , you scared me, dont do this" my voice cracked and I feel hot tears fill in my eyes.

I extend my hand to him, and slowly wrapped my fingers around his. "Baekhyun.. its me, Kang Haemin"

I slowly pull him, he take a back step, following me. "Baek.. listen to me" I grab his hand tighter, he slowly wrapped his cold hand around mine. "look at me.." he look down and didnt give any respond. "why did you do this ?.. I remember you told me that committing suicide is a dumb thing to do.. then why ?" I whisper

"is it hard for you ? then tell me Byun Baekhyun, share it with me because I am always here for you" I pull him again and he take another back step.

I slowly smile a relief, I stand infront of him and the view I seeing really hurt me. His red eyes, and is still crying. His uniform is kind of wet, and he is not like him. 

I cupped his face, making him looking at me. His eyes fall on me and in a second, I burst into tears. Every memory that I have with him flashed in my mind. I cried hard as I realized my true feeling toward him. I dont want to lost his gaze, I dont want to lost him again.

I feel his hand on my cheeks "uljima" his voice cracked and I quickly hug him. Because I miss him, so bad. I miss this guy so much. I feel his hand s around my wrist, hugging me tighter.

That when I hear the crowd clapping and screaming. Then it hit me, I look through the crowd and see Daehyun standing there. 

no.. this is not it, I thought

His eyes is empty, his gaze is. Suddenly I feel confusion in me. I can barely breath. Tears fall on my cheek again. Im scared he might misunderstand.. but I myself dont understand to my own feeling. 

My hand around Baekhyun loosen when I look at the..empty Daehyun. Im scared.. of losing him.

Baekhyun caught my eye and follow my gaze, but before he could, I put my hand on his cheek, not letting him see what Im seeing, not letting him getting hurt.

 He look straight to my eyes "Im sorry" he whisper as he held my hand tight. I look at him and then at Daehyun.

"Baekhyun- I..-I" I try to said as I look at Daehyun

"Its hard for me" he confess as he burst into tears again, this is not the first time I see him cry but, this is the worst. I look at him, I feel strongly worried for him.

"..tell me, what happen ?" I ask carefully, "what happen that you turned to this mess Byun Baekhyun"

"m-mum.. she is dying" its like time have stop for a moment. "m-mom.. is dying ?" I said in disbelief "w-why ? is she sick ? an accident or-"

"cancer.. its cancer and she have no time left" he said and I turned speechless. 

"and youre trying to solve it by committing suicide ?" I said ,my eyes turned to Daehyun again but.. he is not there. I want to step away for Daehyun before Baekhyun grab my hand 

"Im going to kill myself if you leave" he said, with unusual tone. "Byun Baekhyun.." I mumbled

"Because I scared.. I lost everything in one day, Im scared to be alone, Haemin. Do you know how hurted am I ?"

My eyes stuttered. I look at his back, searching for Daehyun but he is nowhere to be seen. I look back at Baekhyun, I held her hand and force on a smile..

"Im... not going to leave you, I will never do such things" I said, because he need me more than anyone else. There is no one can comfort him if its not me. I know him so well, maybe Daehyun;s right. I know him more than he know himself. We have faced happy and sad moment since we still a kid. And he is not that strong for a guy. He is somewhat fragile ..in my eyes.

"let's go.. uhm ? committing suicide is not the right way to solve this problem, you have to faced it instead" I said and he slowly nod before looking at me. "Im sorry" he said and I just smiles. Pulling him to the sick room.

I look at his calm face when he sleep, his eyes is kind of bruise and puffy due to the tears. I turned my gaze to his hand, he held my hand real tight, sometimes his hand moving and held my hand tighter... probably nightmares.

"Haemin