Remember when I said I am not going to rest til I get there? This is for you guys who waited. Sorry for the long wait. xx

Its been 2 years since Joonmyun left. I survived without him around,everything is doing fine without him. Never in my life have I ever thought he could mean so much to me but that was before, Chanyeol means everything to me now. Maybe I should also move on,I've been running away from my own happiness for too long; I guess its time to be happy again.

Me and Chanyeol are preparing for our wedding again,I took 2 years to figure out things and forced myself to love Chanyeol. He sacrificed too much for me. I looked foolish for treating him that way,he also has a feeling and I mess around with it like its an everyday thing. 

That evening I jogged around the park alone; craving for a fresh air despite the busy life in the city. While I stopped for a while,trying to drink someone grabbed my top, I can sense its a small tiny hands grabbing onto it.I looked around and saw who it was.

Joohyun

They are finally back; again. I barely have any strength left to face the 2 of them anymore,I smiled and turned around and get into the car. I dialled Chanyeol's number luckily he picked it up on time.

"Chanyeol-ah",I started

"I--"

"What's wrong,Jieun?"

"J-joonmyun. He's-he's back"

It was silent for a while

He took a deep breath before he could finally start again, "Jieun,listen here. We've talked about this so many times in the past. You don't have to feel scared if you only love me. Face him, tell him the truth.We should have a drink some time later"

That's it, I don't even know what am I scared of. I'm such a fool. Am I afraid to fall in love again? I hate Kim Joonmyun for making my life miserable like this.

"Okay then, see you later.Bye"

I came up with such a long face,luckily Suzy wasn't home yet if not she is so going to question so many things which will pisses me off but I'm going to miss doing things with her cause I'll be moving out soon,with Chanyeol.I really want her to get married as soon as possible so she won't live here all alone.

It looks like I have to gather every courage that I barely have now, just to fac