It's weird. It's so weird.

He shouldn't have sent me these because right now, I'm beyond the word confused. What should I do to these things? Why would he do this? 

Lee Donghae, I thought we're done already. We're so done now. Aren't we?

I stared at those red boxes and a bouquet of red roses as my head gets light every time I think of him. I could feel hot tears starting to form.

"Oh wow. That's so sweet of my brother, " I heard the person bedside me say.

I nervously looked at him and drew a smile, "He has always been."

He just nodded, stayed there. I noticed that he's still in his apron and could pinpoint that he's still in the perks of cooking. I smirked to that.

"Yah, you're not finished yet. Go back to the kitchen. I'm starving."

He laughed a bit to that and nodded his head cutely. "Aye, aye, Captain! "

He made a salute pose then finally strolled back to the kitchen. I was left again in the living room, staring at the gifts.

Somehow, I felt bad. Those past Christmas Parties, we always got each other plenty of presents. Now, he just gave me this even though we're still trying to sort things out. 

I sighed. What should I give you?

I lazily got up from the other side of the living room and approached those things. Carrying it to my room, I realized that he still thinks of me. It made me smile, though.

I set the things on my bed. Ugh. My body aches and it's not a great help to my grumbling stomach. It's like there's war going on.

Stretching, I turned my body but was halted when I saw who's beyond the window. It's him, it's Lee Donghae. 

He's seated on the balcony of their house, adjacent to my room. He has his side facing me and I was thankful for that he hasn't seen me.

His lips, his cheek, his eye, his nose...ugh. I miss him, I miss the only person I love. 

I was about to turn away when he suddenly look to where I was standing. He reluctantly shifted his body and faced me. And I was saddened when I saw his gloomy, tired face.

Aw, my baby.

A smile was drawn on his lips but it didn't reach his eyes. I replied a smile, too which I just pulled off when I'm trying to be okay though I am not.

Few feet away from me.

"Jessica..."

Damn it! It feels good hearing my name from him. 

I nodded. "Donghae," I responded. 

"How's it going?" I could tell he can't hardly say that. 

I shrugged. "Okay."

He stayed silent then and remained staring at me for a moment. I felt my face heat up to the heaviness of his eyes on me so I tried dismissing the awkward silence.

I drew closer to the window pane and said, "Thank