It’s Saturday, which means no school, which means Soojung has extra more hours of sleep and she ends up waking when the sun starts to shine brightly between the clouds. It has always been her routine. No one has ever there to wake her up early, and that’s why she’s always late. It’s not like nobody cares anyway. Her dad isn’t always at home to remind that girls aren’t supposed to wake up in the noon. Her mom isn’t in Korea to wake her up early so that she can watch and learn as she makes the breakfast. No one has ever there, but she ain’t complaining because she thinks that maybe things are just better that way.

She soon finds herself walking out from her house, with a bag of school works even she doesn’t feel like doing them but she brings anyway because who knows, people change their mind in a matter of time, and she heads to wherever her feet bring her to.

She feels like asking Jinri out but then she thinks that maybe she should use her time alone sometimes. She realises her life isn’t always revolves around Jinri and that she needs to learn to depend on her own. Plus, she needs to just figure things out—things between Jinri and Myungsoo and her. Nothing’s wrong, she thinks, but she doesn’t feel like it’s right either.

She thinks a lot, usually, but lately she seems to be thinking more than a lot and she suffers headache from it. She’s been asking why and how she knows what Myungsoo likes and dislikes. How does she know and why Jinri doesn’t? She should’ve not known and Jinri’s the one who should’ve known.

It’s because you’ve been looking after him, her mind tells her that but she shakes her head, denying it. Probably that’s the answer—very easy—complicated questions don’t always have complicated answers but she keeps looking for any other acceptable, reasonable reasons.

If she voices out her thought, people would really think that she’s making it hard and she’s running away from reality, but she’s not. She’s just trying to have a firm grip on reality.

Things have been complicated lately and Myungsoo has been invading her mind, and it shouldn’t be that way. She feels like a sinner thinking about him when Jinri’s falling for him, hard, and she knows it isn’t love like a puppy love. It’s more than that, in Jinri’s eyes she could even see it. But she couldn’t help it—not when all she could see even in closed eyes is his smile, not when all she could hear between the blustering music is his laugh. Not when all she could remember is him in between days and nights.

It’s only when someone suddenly hits her by the shoulder and an utter of apology that follows takes her back to reality. She looks up, taking a moment to recognize the place, and she sighs when she realises she’s in Hongdae. Out of all places, why does she end up there? She’s forever questioning fate.

She knows it’s late in the evening when she looks at the sky and the birds that fly across it to go back to where they’re belong. It’s weird that she’s actually envy with the birds. The birds are free and she thinks that it’d be really nice if she could join them even for a day.

She then walks again, and maybe that fate’s really playing with her—Myungsoo’s there. He’s just started his magic show, she sees even she’s a few steps away because he’s surrounded by people. She notices that there’re two guys doing tricks too, Myungsoo’s in the middle while the other two is on his left and right. People keep growing and she’s pushed to the very back that she could see nothing, but she hears what he says.

“Do you have interest in someone right now?” she hears him asks a volunteer. That gains her full attention.

“Do you want to know if you and him could make it?” she hears he asks again.

Then the crowd goes ‘aww’ and she wonders what he’s doing, and what’s the answer for the question, but she has no intention to go through the crowd and stand in the front row just to know it because it’s like digging her own grave. She doesn’t want him to see her. She doesn’t want to see him—she has enough of seeing him even he’s not with her.

“Don’t be sad! So, now let’s see if you and I can be friends!” he exclaims very cheerfully and Soojung nearly scoffs.

What a flirt, she thinks as she rolls her eyes. Is he here to do magic or hit on girls? Laughing in disbelief, she then walks away and ends up in Davinchi Café, doing her school work with a cup of hot chocolate and a plate of butter cookies.

She’s all there, but her mind is completely not. She puts the blame on Myungsoo and his whole existence.

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Soojung tilts her head up when she hears the screeching sound of the chair in front of her and she lets out an almost inaudible gasp. She doesn’t know why she’s still shocked even he does everything he can to startle or catch her off guard every time. She’s used to it but it happens when she least expects it that she’s left with a jaw drop.

“Hey.”

“What are you doing here?” she asks.

He shrugs. “What do you think?”

“How do you know it's me?”

He grins very widely as if she asks a very stupid question. He puts his chin on his fist as his elbow props on the table before he says, “Oversize sweatshirt, skinny jeans,” he looks under the table and Soojung almost thinks he’s really creepy if he doesn’t look up millisecond later. “grey Vans, a beanie and that MCM bag pack of yours. You tell me.”

“Not fair enough. You check on my shoes.”

“Just want to make sure it’s grey and not the white one that you always wear at school.”

So, he notices…

“How do you know I’m here?”

“Instinct.” He says and when he sees her almost throws the butter cookies, he quickly adds. “I saw you. I saw you walked away from the show and I saw you walked this way, so I just followed when I was done.”

“What if I’m not here?”

“But you’re here.”

She rolls her eyes. “I say what if.”

“I wouldn’t know if I don’t try.”

She nods and looks back to her book when she doesn’t know what to say after that. Myu