Yunho woke up before Jaejoong and his face softly so as to not wake the beautiful man. In doing what he did a few hours earlier, he was afraid that everything was now messed up. Even if it was just fake dating, he technically just cheated on Changmin and helped Jaejoong cheat on Kris. Oh God, he was starting to regret everything. Jaejoong, as if sensing his panic, slowly opened his eyes and smiled an adorably sleepy smile. "Hello Yunho." Yunho managed a weak smile in return. Jaejoong wrapped his arms around Yunho. who flinched and stiffened at the contact. Jaejoong frowned and let go. "You're regretting it aren't you?" He looked down, finding the sheet suddenly interesting. Yunho felt bad, but he couldn't lie. "I just cheated on Changmin and helped you cheat on Kris. I can't help it. They're both going to be so hurt." Jaejoong nodded slightly. It was time to tell him. "Kris went back to China last night. Something about an emergency with his boyfriend, Tao." Now Yunho was confused. Wasn't...... "It was all fake, Yunho. Kris already had a boyfriend. The dumb panda insisted that Kris dothis for me despite that. He was hoping I'd succeed." Yunho almost laughed at the bitter irony. It sounded similar to his story, but succeed in what? "So you fake dated Kris becauseeeeeee.......?" Jaejoong let out an empty chuckle. "Come on Yunho, you're not that stupid. Why do you think I did that?" Yunho shook his head. You've gotta be kidding...... "You wanted to make me jealous?" Jaejoong nodded again. "Bingo. I saw you with Changmin and got jealous myself. That bull cliche about not knowing what you have until it's gone, as it turns out, isn't bull at all." Yunho did laugh this time. It was cold and devoid of any sort of happiness. Jaejoong did the same thing he did. He even wanted Yunho back in his life the way Yunho wanted. He got what he wanted, didn't he? This is exactly what he'd been craving to hear for the longest time. Through every practice with Jaejoong and Taemin, every time he waited for Jaejoong to leave his house to walk with him, this is what he'd wanted to hear. Then why doesn't he feel so accomplished? Changmin's face flashed in his mind, and he realized why. Jaejoong snapped him out of his thoughts. "I thought that if I pretended to not care and start dating someone else, then you'd come back to me. Stupid I know." Yunho could say that, yes, it was. He knew it was, and he had done the exact same thing for the exact same reason. He thought of telling Jaejoong that the relationship between him and CHangmin was also fake, but his throat closed up before he could get a word out. He didn't want it to be fake, and he felt like saying it was made it that way. So he'd keep it to himself, at least for a while. "I'm sorry, Jaejoong. I shouldn't have given in like that in any case. I love you, I really do, but I think I love Changmin even more." Jaejoong didn't want to listen, but he needed to hear it. If he didn't, he'd always be chasing after a man that couldn't love him in the way he recently found out he wanted him to. He took his defeat, though a few tears escaped. Yunho pulled Jaejoong into his lap and kissed his head. "I really am sorry." Jaejoong shook his head. "You are nothing like him." Yunho looked confused, but Jaejoong didn't look like he was going to elaborate, so he let it go. He was shocked, therefore, when he got one. "Choi Siwon. You're nothing like Siwon." Yunho knew Siwon. He used to work with him until he was thrown in a rehabilitation center for abusing his boyfriend and killing said boyfriend's best friend. Both were shot, but the boyfriend lived. His eyes widened, and Jaejoong gave a small smile. Yunho scanned over every scar. The pieces of the puzzle suddenly fell into place. "That was you? You were the one he hurt? Was he the reason you ignored me and claimed to hate me?" Jaejoong let a few more tears slip. "I vowed that I'd rather be alone than go through that again. Any guy that seemed good was bad. The ones that seemed bad were catastrophic. That's how I lived after having to help bury my best friend." Jaejoong gave Yunho a small kiss. "Go. He's at Yoochun's." Jaejoong searched for his clothes and put them on. "No." Yunho's firm voice startled Jaejoong. "You're coming with me. We'll explain everything to you, and we'll all leave on good terms." Jaejoong smiled at Yunho's inherit goodness and texted Yoochun that they were on their way to apologize to Changmin. After showering, seperately, and getting dressed, the two drove to Yoochun's place. The minute Junsu opened the door, he slapped them both and then gave them both a hug. Jaejoong rubbed his face. "What'd I do to deserve the hug?" Yunho laughed at the backwards question. He rubbed his own cheek. Junsu was heavy-handed. "Shut up and get inside you two. You have a ton of explaining to do." Junsu was mad, and it was best not to cross him when he's mad. The two stepped inside and saw Yoochun and Onew hovering over a blank Changmin. His eyes were red, and he'd obviously been crying. His breathing was ragged, his eyes unblinking. Yunho cleared his throat. All looked at him but the one person he wanted to look at him. "Minnie?" He sat in front of the youngest. Yoochun and Onew moved to give him room but stayed close in case something happened. Onew slightly glared at Yunho. The latter felt that he rightfully deserved that look. "You have one minute to explain why you cheated on Changmin. Even if you two didn't have , which I'm fairly certain you did, he still saw you kissing. And he also saw the time at the cafe. I give you one minute to give me a damn good reason not to kick your right now." Everyone was shocked; Onew hated cursing. He certainly never did it himself. He was also supposed to be the funny, clumsy, and kind one. Now, he was dark and dangerous. He said all of this in a calm voice, which made it even more intimidating. Even Changmin looked surprised at his behavior. Yunho swallowed hard. "Yes. We did have ." Changmin buried his face in his hands and started crying. Yoochun and Junsu gasped. Onew looked about ready to murder him. 'He did not just say that straight out like that.' Was the thought that ran through everyone's mind. Yunho continued. "Let me finish. Yes we did, and I'm not going to pretend that I didn't love it. But, the minute I woke up, I instantly regretted every second. I hurt you Changmin. As your boyfriend it also hurt me, even though..... Even though we were never really dating." Jaejoong and Onew gasped. Yoochun and Junsu already knew of this, but they were surprised that he admit it so easily. It was a start. "We only started dating because I wanted to make Jaejoong notice me and be jealous. Changmin said that if what was so normal to Jaejoong was suddenly taken from him, then he would try to get me back. What I didn't anticipate......." Yunho stopped, looking at Onew. He knew his minute was up. Onew just waved his hand. "you have thirty more seconds. Don't waste them." Yunho nodded. "I didn't anticipate falling in love with Minnie again. We had been fooling around with each other from sophomore to senior year in high school. We were in love, but we didn't want to ruin our friendship. We decided to just go to each other for any problems we had. Both mentally and ually. In fake dating him, and already living with him beforehand, it brought all of it back. I was confused. I kissed Jaejoong to see if I still loved him. It was no different. This really confused me." Onew had mostly calmed down. "Alright, so the kiss at the cafe was just to see if you still loved him like you thought you did before. You felt yourself falling for Changmin after burying those feelings after high school. But Jaejoong initiated the kiss in the first place. He obviously thought you two were really dating." Yunho seemed to be off the hook for now, but now Jaejoong was under interrogation. "So what the hell's your excuse?" Jaejoong paled. "I was being selfish. I wanted him after seeing his attention being moved somewhere else. I guess your plan worked Yunho. I just wanted to feel what I was missing. I'm so sorry everyone. I let the past keep me from feeling in the beginning, and then I let my pride as a man keep me from abiding by morals. I came here because Yunho wanted me to apologize with him. The truth is, I didn't want to be anywhere near any of you because I would have to face all I've let myself do. I'm not going to sugarcoat anything, I hate myself for doing that all these years anyway, so I'll just say it. Yunho and Changmin know the story already. Yoochun and Junsu only know part of it. Onew, you know nothing of it." He launched into the story about why Siwon was now in prison and rehab. Yoochun and Junsu had no idea. They thought Siwon just lost his mind from some drug and Donghae was in an accident. The two started to cry for Jaejoong since he alone bore that knowledge that his own best friend was killed by the man he thought he loved. Jaejoong didn't want their sympathy though. That wasn't the point of telling them the truth. It wasn't for sympathy; it was for clearance and peace of mind. "I let that dictate my life. I've been a because of it. I apologize. Most of all, I apologize to Chang-ah. I hurt you because I didn't care if you were dating someone. I'm selfish, that's just who I am. I think about me before anyone else. Don't let my idiocy cost you and Yunho a happy life." Changmin got up. Yoochun looked concerned, but he let him go. The youngest stepped up to Jarejoong and punched him hard in the stomach. Every other face was completely shocked at it. Jaejoong doubled over, fell to the ground, and groaned. He then laughed through it. "Thanks Chang-ah. I deserved that." Changmin smiled and helped Jaejoong up. "You're welcome. Next time, don't sleep with my boyfriend. Geez, when I said don't let me ruin the fun and just continue, you should've known that it meant back the off he's mine!" Changmin hugged Jaejoong, confusing everyone. Changmin explained since Jaejoong was out of breath. "When Jaejoong first told me about Siwon and Donghae, he was torn up pretty bad. He also said right before he fell asleep that if he ever did anything stupid with Yunho or me to punch him really hard in the stomach." A chorus of "Oh"s rang through the room. Yunho hugged Changmin from behind. "I am so sorry for hurting you like this Minnie. I just want you to know that I love you so much. I was stupid for not saying so in high school, and I was stupid for trying to use that to my advantage in getting someone else. Can you forgive this stupid idiot and go out with me for real this time?" Changmin turned in Yunho's arms with a stern look. Yunho lost hope until, "You better not make the same mistake again mister. I'm trusting you now. Don't break my heart a second time. It'll be worse because we're actually dating this time." Changmin pouted, and Yunho spun him around before placing a passionate kiss to his lips. Changmin whimpered into the kiss, pulling Yunho even closer and granting entrance to the tongue that swept across his bottom lip. They were really getting into it, until someone cleared their throat loudly. The two broke apart blushing. Yunho noticed Jaejoong looking down at the floor. "Jae hyung? Are you gonna be ok?" Jaejoong looked up and smiled. This one was genuine. "Yeah, I'll get over it eventually. But you know, I'm gonna miss being called oppa." Yunho laughed. "You'll find someone to call you that in time." Jaejoong smiled and closed his eyes. When he opened them, he was laying in his bed completely . He chuckled. 'Of all things to dream about.... Why those memories? I've been over Yunho for years. Which reminds me.....' He sat up and looked at his clock. '2 in the morning. Eh, it can wait. Yunho's and Changmin's anniversary gift is still at the store. I'll pick it up later.' "Joongie? Baby why are you up?" He turned back to his lover. "I could ask you the same thing babe." The man pouted. "I felt your warmth leave me and woke up." Jaejoong knew what that meant and gathered the feminine like man in his arms, placing a kiss on those adorable lips he just couldn't resist. "Better now? Get some sleep. We have to be at Yunho and Changmin's place by 5 this evening." He kissed him one more time, which turned into two, and then three. "Babyyyyyy~" His lover whined. "I can't sleep if you keep kissing me." Jaejoong chuckled and kissed him again. This time, it was deeper and pulled a moan from the other. "Sorry babe, you're too hard to resist. I'm done now, I promise. I love you." The man just huffed playfully. "You better. Making me lose my beauty sleep because of a dream and some kisses." But as Jaejoong fell asleep holding himin his arms with a smile on his face, the man gently brushed a strand of hair away from those beautiful eyes. "I love you too Joongie." As he himself entered the world of dreams, he could've sworn he saw Jaejoong's smile grow wider.