Shinhye POV~

It seems like forever since Junpyo Oppa told me that I only had six months to live, my life was back to lifeless. I didn't want to live I just wanted to die now! I cried myself to sleep and I got up with red puffy eyes and I looked abnormally thin. "Oh great now don't I just look gorgeous" I mumbled while still looking at my self. My hair was all over the place and I had puffy red eyes while I looked thin. I cleaned myself up and I got downstairs. My brother had puffy eyes too, but I just smiled at him the best I could but he knew it was fake. "How are you holding up?" a tear escaped his eyes. "..." I just let tears fall as I hugged him. We were not in the mood to eat breakfast so we just parted ways. "I don't want to die, Oppa. I don't want to leave you alone. I want to stay." I cried into his hoodie while his tears fell on top of my head.

At school I was a zombie. Luhan had asked me if I was 'Ok' but I just nodded while looking at the floor because I have been crying all morning and the redness still hasn't left my eyes. I just wanted to go home and wither away there. I lost all hope and meaning in life. I let a huge sight out when it was time to go to lunch. Luhan and exo offered let me eat lunch with them but I declined I needed to be alone for a while. I went to the rooftop.

I let the wind flow throught my hair and I let the cold wind slap me in the face. As I sigh a tear falls again but I let it fall this time. I don't kn