Ra Im and visited first to explain my appa had gotten off with a warning. He was still my legal guardian till my 18th birthday in about 5 months. When Ra Im left Minho came in next and sat in the chair next to my hospital bed. He knew now that he couldn't touch me. We didn't say anything for several minutes. I was looking to the wall on the other side of the bed where the window was but I could feel minhos eyes on me. "your ummie told me what happened at the lodge. We didn't know about the therapy. We had to interrupt the wedding to save you both. Joo won wanted to go sooner but we would have been booted out. If your therapy really worked and you don't want to be together anymore I understand. Just tell me and I'll walk away." he said softly his voice quivering. Looking toward him I saw his eyes glossy as tears threatened to spill over. I don't know if that's what I want. I haven't had time to think about anything. What If I never get better and can never touch him like before. 

 

"is that what you want?" I asked him. 

 

"I want you." he replied. I looked at him with sad eyes. 

 

 "I still want to be with you just I'm scared. Scared of what's going to happen. Every little touch hurts me. From anyone. We can try to work it out but I don't want to make any promises things will be back to normal." I whispered looking down at the sheets. 

 

"Let's start now." Minho said with a smile. Slowly he slid his hand closer to mine as it lay on the sheets with an iv sticking out of it. Creeping slowly he set it right next to mine as the fear rose in my chest. The heart monitor sped up with my heart racing. Closing my eyes I prepare myself mentally for the pain as he slid his over mine and held it in his hand. He just left it there letting me relax a little. Only a little. "is this alright?" he asked rubbing his thumb on the skin between my thumb and index finger. Shakily I nodded as key umma, jonghyun and Onew walked into the room. 

 

"Hey taebaby. You feeling better?" he asked trying to give me a hug. I flinched but Minho pulled him away before he touched me. 

 

"No you'll hurt him." minho said and key nodded. 

 

"I'm feeling better umma." I softly replied giving him a small smile as Minho took my hand again. 

 

"That's good to hear." key umma sighed with relief as ummie walked in. 

 

"Taeminnie. Are you alright?" she asked sitting on the side of my bed. 

 

"Yes it's only a scratch." I knew that's not what she meant. "I'll be fine it'll just take some time to get used to things again." 

 

"Are you sure. We could always go on a trip to ease your mind." I shook my head no as the female doctor told everyone visitors must leave. As everyone got up to leave. Held onto minhos hand. 

 

"Minho will you stay with me tonight. I'm afraid appa might show up." Minho nodded and sat back down in the chair as the door shut leaving us alone. 

 

"do you want to talk about it?" Minho asked after several minutes of comfortable silence. I looked over at him with a confused look before he continued. "About what happened during therapy." he wanted to know what happened. Why I was so afraid. Shrugging my shoulders I shifted my hand out of his and curled my on my side facing him. I looked down at his hand as he continued. "How did it start?"

 

"It was mostly electric shocks in the beginning. Lots of pictures of two men together and then lots of shocks." I softly spoke. "Then it turned into drugs and lots of touching and vomit and pain and my head hurt and and- " I started to hyperventilate my heart monitor beeping faster. 

 

"Taemin. Look at me." Minho said grabbing my hand again. My lungs continued to expand and retract quickly as he whispered to me. Slowly I calmed down as nurses ran in to help. "It's alright. Everything's okay now." he said as some nurse gave him an extra iv bag. When they left I looked over at Minho again. "We don't have to talk about it not of it hurts you. Go ahead and get some sleep." he said as my hand involuntarily tightened slightly. "Don't worry I'll stay up and keep watch." my hand relaxed again and I nodded. Closing my eyes I held his hand closer to my chest enough so I knew he was there but not close enough to go into another panic attack.