A month has passed since I became a trainee at WM. I have to admit, I’m having a hard time with this schedule. I almost have no time to call my mom, but I still find some breaks every now and then.

And surprisingly, during the 4 months that I’ve been here, I have never met nor seen Chansik even once. During my break times, he’d always be in the vocal training room. At night, I go home early since I have assignments like practicing this dance, memorizing this song, etc. And at that time, B1A4 is in a random room, doing all kinds of things. It’s like fate was trying to never make us meet each other.

But all this time, I was being good friends with the other members of B1A4, especially Sandeul. He’s like my bestfriend among all of them. He’s really kind, he never fails to make me smile, and he’s always there for me. He’s a year ahead of me, though.

Anyway, I’m here at the vocal training room now. Mr. Han is not here, but I still have to practice alone. Life of a trainee, it’s always hard.

Saramdeuri bojanha nunmul jom dakkgo gogae deureobwa

Mianhada haetjanha mureupirado kkeulheo boilkka

Heunhan malshilsu gatgo ireohke ulmyeon naega mweoga dwae

Saranghae raneun malron deo isang neoreul dallael su eopgesseo

Maeil hyu hyu hyu hyu hyu

Gin hansumeul baeteumyeo neil banseonghae

Baby you you you you you

Jalharyeogo haneunde andwae

Motdwen malman baeweoseo

Motdwen jitman baeweoseo

Chakhan ni imam mollaseo

Mweonga jakkuman kkoyeo kkoyeo

Ajik cheori eopseoseo

Gipeun sarangi eoryeoweo

♫ Only Learned the Bad Things - B1A4

I was interrupted when someone entered the room. Who else interrupts my practice? None other than my bestfriend, Lee Sandeul.

“Mwoya? What are you doing here?”

“Nothing. I just came to see how you are doing.” He said with a smirk.

“Aish. Just because you’re the main vocalist, doesn’t mean that you can look down on me.” I proudly said.

“I’m not looking down on you, though.”

“Fine. Then please tell me why you came here. You’re reason is not valid.” I was playing with him.

“Is it that bad to see my bestfriend trying her best to become a hallyu star?” He said while pouting. Seriously, when he does aegyo, it’s just too cute.

“Stop being cute, will ‘ya!”

“Are you falling for me now?” Sandeul started to tease me.

“Aniyo!” I firmly said.

“That hurts, Joo Neul-ah.”

Well, I have to say the truth. I have a LITTLE crush on him. When I personally saw him singing in front of me, I just can’t help but develop a crush on him.

Though I have a crush on Sandeul, I still can’t get over him. Chansik. I miss him already; I wonder how he is doing? Does he still love me? I broke up with him, but I still love him. I just had to, since it’s a one out of a million opportunity.

“YA! Lee Joo Neul!” Sandeul shouted in my ear.

“Oppa! You don’t have to do that!” I said as I covered my ears.

“I’ve been calling you for a million times already.” He said as he made a poker face. “What are you thinking about?” He asked with a persuasive voice. Aish, I just can’t resist him.

I blushed at his question. “Do I really have to say it?”

“Of course! I’m your chingu after all.”

“I’m thinking about my first love.” I hesitantly said.

“You had a first love? Did he become your boyfriend?” Sandeul asked.

“Well, yeah. I had to break up with him, though.”

“OMO! Waeyo?”

“I had to move to America for studies.”

“Well, there are long-distance relationships, right?”

“I was told by my mom, they don’t work often.”

“Well, it could work if you have trust for each other, right?”

“During that time, I was too shocked by what mom said about long distance relationships. I didn’t think about those things, and besides, I was still a teenager back then.”

“You’re still a teenager, though.”

“I’m about to be 20 on September!” I said as I hit him slightly.

“You’re still a teenager now, though~ You can’t change that unless it’s September 20 today~” Sandeul said as he stood up.

“You’re leaving now?”

“Ne. Why? Do you want me to stay?”

“Stop imagining. I’m actually wishing that you’ll go out sooner or later. Bye!” I said as I waved my hands to him.

He smiled back and pulled the door.

It’s almost 4PM, Almost time for my dance practice. I removed the headphone and headed for the chair, where I usually put my things on. And for the 2^nd time, Sandeul opened the door to see me.

“Ya! Why did you check on me 2 times today?”

“Nothing. I just want to have a conversation with you before your next practice.”

“What do you want to talk about, then?” I asked.

“Ummm, what about your first love? Sounds good?” He smiled cutely at me.

“Fine, as if I have a choice. You’re curious, right?” I said as I looked at my watch. 10 minutes. I still have time.

We sat down at the floor. It’s pretty clean so we can sit there with no worries.

“What do you want to know about?” I started.

“Hmmmm... what about... the name of your first love?”

I stayed quiet for 5 seconds. “Why do you have to ask that?”

“It’s because I’m curious. Just say it.”

I sighed. Do I really have to say it? He’s Sandeul’s groupmate. AISH. WHY AM I WORRIED WHEN HE KNOWS ME? Pabo.

“Actually, you know that person quite well.”

“Jinjja? Who is it?”

“It’s...”

The door opened and a person peeked from the door.

“Hyung! Why did you suddenly disappear? We’re in the middle of practice!”

“OMO! Mianhae Chan. I just want to talk with her for a moment.”

“...him.” I said it weakly.

“Hyung, that’s no excuse for you to leave practice. Let’s go!”

“Tell me the name next time, arasso? I’m going now.” Sandeul said as he stood up and headed for the door.

Ehehe. Mianhae, I just love putting songs in chapters~

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