Hana

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"We just had dinner! You want to eat again?" I chuckled as I looked JaeJoong walking over to the counter in the kitchen

"Well not really but maybe we can find something sweet to eat?"

"It's past 1 am Jae" I laughed 

JaeJoong stopped in his tracks and looked at me

"How about a walk?" He asked

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JaeJoong

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As we were walking I was wondering what she was thinking. Was she thinking of the things that I have said, about the lies or was she thinking of the things I had asked of her.. Was it too much to ask?

"Jae... you're thinking. What is it?"

I shook my head

"Nothing in paticular. Except walking with you and how happy I am to have you here with me" I said

She smiled brightly as she looked at me

"Likewise"

"You know.. it's been a very long time I took a stroll like this with a girl" I said

"How was she like?"

I chuckled

"I can barely remember. It was such a long time ago and yet.. when I think of my past I see you"

We stopped by the shore to the lake and she looked at me with enthusiasm

"As if.. there has never been anyone but you" I said

"Really?" She asked

I moved the small hairstrand in front of her eyes and put it behind her ear. I watched her as she inhaled and looked at me as her cheeks became rosy. I smiled as I felt the warmth inside of my chest growing and as I could feel her breath I realized I had moved in closer than I thought. 

A brief kiss was felt before we completely embraced each other and a the kiss deepened. Soon we let go to catch our breath but as I leaned my forehead against hers I couldn't help but to feel complete somehow

"You think we can watch the sunrise together?" She asked

A hole in my heart was felt immediately and I felt myself at loss, not knowing what to say

"I'd love to.. It is on my very to-do list with you but... earlier when I asked patience .. I meant it in times like this.." I mumbled and looked away

I could hear the disappointment in the air and felt it as well. I turned myself to her again, watching how she tried to cope with the words that I had just said. 

"I'm so sorry"

"Jae.. I'm really trying to .. understand how.. and yet it feels like an impossible task somehow she mumbled" 

I sighed

"I know.. it's a lot to ask of you"

"Jae please..."

"Hana.. I"

"HANA!!!"

We both looked up to see the forever Yunho with the best timings to interrupt us. I rolled my eyes and even Hana was annoyed

"Maybe.. you should talk to hima nd settle this once and for all" I said

She looked at me

"I don't know.. I "

"Look you being afraid of confronting it will not make it any easier" I said

"I know that.. I just don't know how to.."

"I know.. but if he does confess to you.. you maybe should.. I don't know.. bring the subject up.. cause afterall... I don't want anyone to go after my girlfriend"

"Girlfriend?" She smiled shockingly but at the same time she looked happy

"I think so.. I mean.. we have kissed.. been on a few dates and.. I know that the warmth in here isn't just anything ordinary"

"Hana, can I talk to you?"

We looked up again to see Yunho standing a few feet away, waiting for Hana to give him a response. She nodded

"When you.. tell him.. about us.. I will try .. to tell you about me.. In the best way I can" I mumbled

She nodded

"I'll do my best"

I looked up at the sky to see the pink clouds returning, the sun about to rise as it colored the sky

I swallowed the big lump in my throat as I let go of her hand and saw her walking away from me which felt like the 10000th time. And this time with Yunho that I wasn't so fond of. I took a deep breath as I saw her further and further away from me. And yet I saw the sun rise up above the horizon and my hands and legs started to disappear once more.. I saw her turn her back but her confused eyes confirmed what I hated the most

I was invisible again yet, here I was.. standing somehow deep in my heart hoping that she would actually see me..

But she didn't stop for long, and a few seconds later.. she was gone.