I wake up when the sunlight catch my eyes. It’s Sunday thanks Goodness and I’m in my room. Everything happened last night was now a little fur. I can’t remember what had happened after the kiss… Why did I kiss him? Why I let myself being so fragile again? Why it’s always LuHan… I sigh, then walk out of bed. Today’s thing is working at the shop, I need to be hurry.

Knock knock!

“Who’s there?”

“Deer…” The voice turns up really in a happy tongue.

“Deer what?” I shout back.

“Deer LuHan!”

I stand there in silence for about a minute, and then slowly open the door.

“Good morning!” says LuHan, with a can-never-be-happier smile. “Let’s go out today.”

I think to myself does the kiss make him think that we’ll be back as a couple like before? I mean hello, I’m not ready to be cheated again! So I make my face disagree and shake my head.

“Nope. I have work today.”

“Why?”

His face looks like a cute puppy, I focus on his plump lips and bang! I got headache. Something is permeating in my chest. I want to kiss those lips. Seriously.

“Because… I said so…”

I stammer with the words come out from my mouth. My face turns to red already cause the feeling I can’t control. My hands are shaking inside the pants’ pockets. I need to shut the door now.

“Go away. Leave me alone.”

“I know there’s something happening with you. You are not feeling good right? Because of the kiss?”, LuHan steps in without my notice. He suddenly holds my hand and his other hand wrap my waist.

“The f***… what do you think you’re doing?”

“Is it because of the kiss?”

“No, go away. I’m fine. Really fine.”

If LuHan keeps doing like this, if he doesn’t want to stop and if I fall for him again… I think about the time when I saw him with another girl, that time did break my heart for a very long time. Where was LuHan then? He left me, now why I have to let him do that again? Why I let myself be so stupid again?

“XiuMin… I know you still love me. Look into my eyes…”

He touches my face with his smooth hand. The touch brings shock to me, I close my eyes immediately and scream.

“Stop… I have my boyfriend already you know? Just stop!”

He stops right after I finish my words. This really works. The 3^rd person.

“Boyfriend? Who?” His voice sounds like he so freaks out now. I did it, I make him stop whatever he’s doing. I success!

“Hah, you don’t know right? Yes I love another guy. You left me remember? So stop being so near me like this. You will never have your chance again!”

“I asked you who your boyfriend is. Answer me.” His voice proves that he’s serious now and I don’t dare to play around with it.

“OK… Chanyeol. Park Chanyeol. The guy with curly hair and big smile. He’s my boyfriend.” OK this has gone too far. Chanyeol is my little brother, he’s a really cute little guy but he’s not my type. *How can I have any type? Since the guy names LuHan still somewhere in my mind*

“You must be kidding me…”

“I’m serious. I love Chanyeol, he comforted me since you’d left. You know what? I told you so, we’re done and now I don’t want you in my life anymore.” I say with confidence but still something inside my heart is hurting because of it.

“I didn’t leave you don’t state it like that. It’s you who left.”

Yes it’s me who decided to move to Seoul but it still doesn’t mean he’s not leaving me. Who did betray first?

“Never mind. Now please go out.”

“XiuMin…”

“What??” I said with an angry voice.

“I still love you, I still wait for you everyday since you left.”

The door shuts. I sit down on the ground. This really tired me. LuHan LuHan LuHan… Should I trust him and give him one more chance? I look out at the window. Sky is still blue, clouds are still white, and my love for him is still there, never broken, never leave.