11:59PM.

12:00AM.

The weather is now as cold as it’s winter, although now is spring. I’m still in my bed thinking about what happened yesterday. I met him, again, my first and only love since high school. Many feelings came back from the moment he came across me at the shop I’m working at. Everything is still the same. His eyes lightened up staring at me, his smile as sweet as cotton candy, and his voice, the way he called my name is still the same.

“XiuMin, long time no see. How are you doing?”

That moment changed everything I built up since he left. I had tried to stop myself loving any other guy, I had swore to myself that there will be a XiuMin that stronger, that never fall for any guy, ever.

I replied in a really low voice.

“Hey. LuHan.”

“I’ve just back from China. Seoul is still the same as I left. Beautiful scenery! And glad I can meet you here. I thought you must be studying in university?”

The way he cared about me, is still making my heart beat faster and faster. I bet my face turned to red already.

“Yes. This is just my part-time job.”

“Oh! I’m going around in Seoul, to recall some memories when I was here, want to join?”

I should have refused his offer, I must have refused it. But I don’t know why I let myself nodded, and then asked the staff to let me go. I’m being such an idiot. Why I keep making myself a fool when there’s LuHan? Just, why?

We walked on the street, to the old places which used to be his favorites, and we laughed, we talked. Actually the one who laughed is me and the one who talked is him, but, still. We stopped at the old coffee shop where I and LuHan first met. LuHan smiled, and he looked right to my eyes.

“Sorry… I didn’t mean to bring you here…” I said it quietly.

“It’s OK.” LuHan shook his head. Suddenly he held my left hand and whispered onto my ear. “I miss us, a lot.”

But then, out of control, I pushed him, not too gentle.

“LuHan, stop it. Just stop whatever you are trying to do. We are D.O.N.E.” I stressed those last words strongly, and then did a most stupid thing ever, I ran away.

Ran away, like when I’d seen him with a girl, holding hands and kissing.

Ran away, like a loser with an unreal love.

Now I’m lying in my bed and thinking, will I be strong to stand out of LuHan? Will my heart let me take a rest after all three years of my effort?