Chapter 6: Of Memories & Electricity Chapter 6 Theme Song: Sometime by SS501     ♥♥♥     "Jihyun-ah! Can I just start eating whatever here now?" The voice from a little far over the other side of the tent that was separating us, called.   "What are you calling me? Should be noona! Come on, say it."   "No, I won't! Jihyun-ah! Come eat together. Or do you want me to bring it there. What are you doing anyway?"   "No! Don't come here! And don't eat! Uhm, go...find some coconut shake for me."   "Coconut..,what on Earth? Jihyun-ah, it's already night time, there's no shop open at the beach here."   "Then, go find it elsewhere." I shouted, trying to sound stern enough to chase him away.   "Can't we just..."   "Please." I came out of my hiding behind the tent and this time, gave my best try for cute pose to plead him to leave the place. Because there's something I needed to settle here without having him around. He's just too noisy, he wouldn't let me do what should be done in peace. My method worked as he grudgingly left. Hopefully, it'd take him at least half an hour.   Mireu. He's actually quite an adorably funny boy, although a little burdensome if you're in my place. He would come approaching randomly and very often, just to dish out cheesy lines that make my hairs stand up on the back of my neck. It's just that I felt uncomfortable by his ways. I mean, wouldn't you?   It's not really that bad. Having someone who openly shows adoration for you. It feels great, much better than having to chase after the person you like, only to have them leave you like a piece of dirty used cloth at the end. Like what 'he' did.   After he left me, without explanation other than we're not meant to be and that he was never really into me, I've stopped believing in men. I still want to fall in love, but I couldn't let myself get hurt again. I don't think I have the strength to get up again if I have to go through what I went through. That day when I first saw him, was still fresh in my mind, how my fingers turned cold and my whole body stiffened and I was unable to smile or have any reaction on my face, that moment I first saw him. It was love at first sight. The kind of love I always read in manhwas but didn't think it really exist in real life. But it does.   It was backstage, during a music show and everybody was frantic and rushing here and there. He was with with his group members, I was with mine, he was serious and didn't look around. He didn't see me, but I saw him. And I fell in love with him, maybe it was his handsome face, maybe it was his stoic nature, maybe it was just the feeling he radiated when I saw him. I tried to held back and not do anything about how I felt, but as days passed, all I could think of was that split second sight of him, rushing off stage with his instrument. The next weekend, as we met by chance again due to promoting at the same time, I decided that the only way to get him off my mind, is to do something about this sudden attraction I felt that couldn't be pushed away.   I went to say hi to him. And as much as my mind was trying its best to hold off my mouth from saying things I shouldn't say, my heart won the fight. I asked him whether he'd be free to go out for coffee the next day. I know it wasn't subtle at all, but he said yes. And eversince then, we kept going out together whenever we could, to anywhere we could, just like two people in love. Though he never said anything, other than calling me for dates whenever he's free. No matter how busy I was, with our practices, I would make time for him. Even if it means lying to sneak out. Sometimes I did feel ashamed, because I'm the leader. A leader isn't supposed to act this way. Although there were times I question my relevance as leader as well, since nobody really listen to me, behind the camera. I couldn't fight with my members, because I knew if they bring up about who have most parts or who work the hardest for the group, I could not argue. It made me hate to mingle with other leaders of girlgroups, because they all have impressive achievement and abilities to boast about. But I was contented. I had him, and he was all I needed to make me happy.   Until his group became busier, and before I knew, we had drifted apart. No, he had brought himself further away from me, always avoiding from answering calls or even when he did answer, he'd say he's busy and ended the call just like that. At that time, I had the feeling that his changes was foreshadowing something bad that was about to come, but I still couldn't let him go and held on. Until one day when he asked me out, I was so happy it took me forever to pick the prettiest dress.   Only to have him say, "Let's not meet again."       When I was contacted for this show, I was already used to have other male idols flirting with me. Ever since my management decided to focus on me as visual of our group, and also ever since I started receiving acting offers in dramas, my popularity and relevance improved greatly. But my heart had hardened and turned cold. I couldn't fall in love, for fear to be the one to get hurt at the end. Thus, the offer for this show, is just yet another platform for me to prove to my members to not look down on me. I planned to show my charms here, to show how much I worth, especially to him. But I did not expect to have almost every guy here showing interest towards myself while ignoring their own partners.   I felt guilty. Yet it felt good. I wanted him to see how much I'm wanted by other guys and what he had lost. Everything seemed to be going better than it should go. Although I had a strong feeling that other girls might hate me. Why wouldn't they? If I'm in their place, I'd hate that girl who snatch the attention of their dates too. But was it my fault? I didn't ask them to act this way. For some reason, my inst