Chapter 11: Of Rainy Night & Watering Eyes Chapter 11 Theme Song: Rainy Day by Loveholic   Instrumental 1 (well, not really instrumental..but not like the lyrics make sense...so...xD)      

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"Hey, Hyungsik-ah, where's my destiny?"   "What do you mean your destiny?" He looked up from whatever book he was reading and frowned.   "Yah, you understand what I'm saying, pabo. Nam Jihyun. Where is she?"   "Since when is she your destiny?" He asked dumbly.   Since forever, idiot. I just made a funny face and looked away because even though it hurts to admit it, but he was right to a certain extent. Since when did my efforts show any result? They say, effort doesn't betray you, but how come Hyungsik never had to do anything to get all the fruits of supposedly effort. Why do I, who have been trying so hard, keep failing to win her heart? Okay, forget about her heart...I knew there's no way she would choose me in the end, or even look at me without ridiculing me right after our second day here. That was, quite long ago. But I kept trying. Because I believe in the power of determination and persistence, and efforts. I was raised as a fighter, not as a loser who gives up after failing one try.   I even went to the extent of pretending to fell in love with Jei noona at one point when I realized Jihyun is probably scared and burdened by my feelings. I wanted to get close to her without making her feel creeped out by me, and I couldn't pretend to like Seungah noona or Hyejeong, because she had already seen how uninterested I was in those two. I'm not a good actor, not good enough to change her view on what she had already seen. So, I find it so awkward to act that way. But it was worth all the trouble when she teased me about Jei noona. At least she would talk to me after that.   But after our date at the beach, I found my confidence dropping low again. This time, it made me felt hollow. That piano performance, was the best I could do. It's not even me. You had no idea, how much I trembled and yelped like crazy because I was so scared while running around to get the setting of the performance done. She smiled and clapped, she even fed me. That moment was like a dream come true. But she didn't look that touched. In fact, she spent more time getting lost in her own thoughts, probably of Hyungsik. Ugh, I hate losing to him. I still can't see what's so great about him besides the fact that he's tall, he's handsome, he's rich, he has great manners and way of speaking, and...okay fine! He's all that great huh? But he wouldn't be able to love her like I could.   Or maybe, he could.    I've tried every trick in my book to win her heart, yet she couldn't even pay attention to me for more than one minute.   Maybe...she's not my destiny? Ya, ya...Bang Chulyong, what were you saying? That's what losers say, but...   "Hyungsik oppa, what are you reading?"   "Hu...huh? Just...notes. Hehe."   "Ya, Hyejeong, why are you bothering us?! Go somewhere else. How about go bother Jei and JB over there?"   "Mir oppa, why are you always treating me so mean?" She whined. Gosh, this kid.   "We want to have some man to man talks, okay? Little girls shouldn't interfere."   "I'm not little girl! Oppa, if you keep being like this, I'll just choose Jun.K oppa in the end. I can only tolerate so much you know?"   "Yah, just go to him, if you want to. Like he would choose you anyway."   "Oppa really said he would choose me in the end! Mir oppa, you just wait and see." She stomped away, to my relief. When she's in hyper mode, she's kinda noisy. Not in the way Seungah noona is noisy, but in a little girl's way. I can't stand that.    Aish. This pabo Jadu. Heh, that's what I called her when we first met. Plum. Jadu. But after seeing Jihyun's expression upon hearing the name , I suddenly felt embarassed to use such silly nicknames anymore that I stopped and just called her by name. Speaking of Jun.K hyung, why the hell did Seungah noona agreed to go on date with him? It's so obvious he and Jei noona are both still in daze and not in their element after that probably out of the world kiss I'm guessing. Why didn't Seungah noona just paired with Jaebum and let those two settle whatever their problem is? I hate the weird atmosphere ever since this morning because of those two. Aish. And Jun.K hyung even promised he would choose Jadu? Why did he choose Seungah noona for tonight's date then? Isn't she only going to end up hurt even more? She's already in terrible position since nobody's interested in her, romantically. Nobody even interested to pretend to be interested in her. Poor noona. Life is cruel sometimes.   "Jun.K hyung said he would choose Hyejeong? Then why did he ask to date with Seungah noona just now?" Hyungsik broke the silence by asking me the thing I was just asking myself. Ridiculous.   "You had the same thought like me, huh, Hyungsik?" He nodded and closed his notebook. I've never seen that book around him before this. Weird.   "So, after your date with Seungah noona last night, you've been thinking about her all the time until now?"   "Yah, Mireu, that's exaggerating. She's nice. You should've treated her better. Anyway, how's your date with Jihyun noona yesterday? Anything interesting happened?" Smooth, he's quick at changing topics. Is this the kind of guy you like, Jihyun-ah? Tch.   "Oh, nothing. We just kissed and she told me that you're boring."   "Haha, like I believe you."   "Then, why ask?" I wondered if I sounded too serious that Hyungsik too, lost the silly smile on his face.   "Jihyun noona, she's been acting strange today. Even just now, she said she had headache and wanted to sleep early. She doesn't look too happy either today. I wonder what's wrong with her."   Ahh, so that's what happened to her. I've been wanting to know where she went to since the beginning of our conversation here.   "Hey, don't blame me. I had nothing to do with her mood swing. I even slept outside the tent last night, mind you." And that earned me a slap on my shoulder.    "Ya! Don't bring that up again. Seungah noona will be uncomfortable if you keep bringing it up."   I shrugged and continued takin