Chapter 22: Of Promises That Could Not Be Kept & Letting Go Chapter 22 Theme Song: Set Free by Shinhwa       ♥♥♥     "Mireu, did you even sleep last night?"   "Oh...Jun.K hyung?...what are you talking? Of course I slept." Crap, was he observing me the whole night from his bed? That's creepy, dude.      Actually, there were so many things going inside my mind last night, that I could not sleep. Jihyun, Jei noona, Seungah noona, and today. I wished I had more time to think it over even though my decision had already been set and I would not be changing it...I think. Jihyun...she's just someone who is so adorable, graceful, pretty, perfect.    Maybe too perfect for someone like me.   So, if you're wondering, yes. I'm letting her go because that's the right thing to do if you love, and I'm not worried about her because Hyungsik that pabo would treat her well...right? Besides, after the show, they probably won't get to meet up again, so I wouldn't say I'm giving up entirely, but just for this show. Heh. Who knows the future, right?   But... there was a promise...no, there were promises, that I will keep, and that I could not keep. And it's the one I could not keep that had been weighing on my mind. I may not be a prince charming out of fairy tale book, but I was taught well by my parents. 'Always keep your words, or you're not worth to be called a human.' That's what the old man said all the time.   And now, my head is ripping apart at the thought of becoming not-human. I will break a promise that I made on my own. In order to keep another promise. How absurd is that? It may not mean anything to her, she might not even take those words seriously, but I did mean it when I said it. What if she did believe it too? I sort of told that to her twice, even though both times I didn't directly promised to choose her back...but I told her to choose me. What if she became like that night again? It will be my fault. I don't want to be part of that...but there's nothing I could do about it either. I can't choose her. I need to keep the other promise.   I went out of the room without even preparing myself on how to break it to her. Well, this is how I always roll anyway. I'll eventually find what to say once I meet her. It's not like she doesn't know how I am.   Once I reached the door and knocked on it bravely though, I felt like there were knots in my stomach trying to kill me. I should've prepared. Should I run before she opens? Before I could run though, the door opened.   "Oh, Mir oppa, why are you here? Who are you looking for?"   Crap. I tried to peek inside the room but could not see a thing. Why is this kid so tall?   "Uhh, you. Yeah." I scratched my head in frustration. Why did I always end up saying the wrong thing?   "Really?" She pulled my hands away from the girls' room to the lawn outside the house. Okay, what's the secret?   "So...what do you have to say, oppa?" She stared expectantly. Oh. I forgot, I was the one who said I wanted to meet her. Damn.   "So...uhh...what do you think of Hyungsik?"   "Hyungsik oppa? But why? What's wrong with him? He's a cool oppa. Just like Jun.K oppa."   "So...do you like him?"   "Me? Him? Oppa, are you...jealous?"   "No!!! It's just that...he keep talking about your date and it's getting annoying. You should keep it up with Jun.K hyung." Actually, I didn't plan to talk about any of those. It's just the only thing that jumped off my mouth. She didn't look too pleased.    "But Jun.K oppa is with Jei unnie, why would you want me to keep clinging onto him? Why not let him be with Jei unnie?"   "Because...Jei is with me. Understand? Now, go back."   "Oppa, you're really frustrating you know?" She frowned and stomped back into the house.   Me? Frustrating? Isn't it more like, me frustrated? Aish, I should've made it clear to her to not go near Hyungsik or choose him. But...what if she also got the envelope? I don't think the PD would want to pair her with Hyungsik, right? Ahh, I don't know. I didn't even come to their room to meet her anyway. Stupid.   "Chulyong-ah, what are you doing outside early this morning? Secret date, huh? Aish...you really can't wait, don't you?"   "Yah! Noona,...where are you from?"   "Just...taking souvenir pictures of sunrise in Jeju. Why? Do you think I didn't notice your little date with Hyejeong? Hey, I won't tell anyone okay." She raised her index finger and pressed it on her lips, before continuing, "At least you're letting go of Nam Jihyun. That's a healthy decision, I think."   This noona is just so stupid. That was all she could think of?   "Noona, I want to tell you something. I...I'm sorry I couldn't keep my words. I've think about it, and I wanted to be with Jei noona, as a final choice. Sorry." I just need to spill everything before I got sidetracked again, right?     ♥♥♥     "...I wanted to be with Jei noona, as a final choice."    He looked like he still had many things to say, so I stayed quiet. Why is he so serious today? This is not going to be a really happy day for me, can't he at least brighten my morning a bit with his antics? I would expect that from him, at the least.   "Sorry."   I could imagine creases formed on my forehead after waiting for a few more seconds and realized no more words were about to come.   "That's it? That's what you wanted to tell me?"   He nodded very slowly. Why would he feel sorry? Did I say I would choose him or expecting him to choose me? Silly Chulyongie. Wait, he didn't know I chose him in the fake final selectio