Taecyeon kept explaining the situation, he kept revealing the truth to Donghae, told him everything, told why the rumor 2 months ago started. He told the story the same as when Jessica told him in the cafe 2 months ago and Donghae listen to Taecyeon carefully with his undescribeable feeling. His face showed a clearly shock expression when he began to understand all of this. His eyes opened so wide. His heart beat so fast. He began to sweat so much. He was afraid of this story. He just couldn't accept the truth about it, what Yoona had done to him and his friends who knew about that but kept it as a secret. It made him realized why Leeteuk forced him to forget Yoona, why the other members acted so weird. He realized now that s actually tried to make him forget about Yoona. He was even more shocked when began to realize why Jessica asked him to come back. She was pretending, it was all to make him forget about Yoona as well and Yoona's attitude when she was mad at him, yelled at him, her non sense reason to break up with him, her tears, all of it just to make him hurt, so that's he could forget her. That was her plan to hide her condition. The painful plan that now destroyed by Taecyeon. Thought about all of it made his tears suddenly fall.

He immediately off to the hospital, when Taecyeon gave an adress of it. Rushed to his car, drove it as fast as he could. He couldn't bear his feeling again. He burst out his tears when suddenly the moment he had with Yoona came across in his mind. He blamed himself more for all of this. He blamed for not recognizing Yoona's condition. How much he cursed himself, knowing about it just now, was totally fool. s, snsd members, he blamed them, he still couldn't understand why they all tried to make him hurt. His love, Yoona, the girl who he loved so much. The girl that he almost forgot, why he had to hate her, why he should get hurt, why should forget her? he still didn't get it.

Arrived in the hospital, he immediately hid his face under his hat, so the cityzen couldn't recognized him. He immediately off to the room when Yoona was being operated now. 

He opened the door which headed to the operation room. There was a hallway and he could see all of snsd members and suju gathered in there. Tears, he could clearly see those things in every snsd member's eyes. And their sad expression turned become shock when they saw him there, in front of them.

"Donghae" some of them reflex shouted his name when saw his figure in front of the door. They could see Donghae's messy condition and his expression could describe his feeling that he was angry now. 

When he saw them, he could only remember how cruel they were to him. It was like they took away the most precious treasure he had from his life. He couldn't stop to think if all of this for his goodness. They should at least think in his position. For him it was totally unfair!

Some member still saw him with worried expression and not knowing what they had to do while Donghae was there, tried to lie again wasn't a good idea, stop him would probably failed. He was in angry mode. They realized that the truth already revealed. They were sure that Donghae already knew everything, so the only thing they could do now was pray for Yoona. 

While in that room all the girls just couldn't stop crying, sobbing and it sounded so obvious, even some suju member cried. But it didn't matter for Donghae. He didn't care how much they cried for Yoona, even when he saw Jessica cried so hard, he was still angry with her. He couldn't forgive them now, not in this day. He ignored all of them and walked towards where Yoona was being operated now, didn't care with some member who shouted his name who tried to stop his action. The only one he cared only Yoona, just her, the girl behind that operation door. 

"Why you did this to me, Yoong? waeeee?" he cried in front of the operation door, on his knees. He tried to talk with Yoona, the girl in that room, seperated by door, even though he knew she couldnt hear it, he kept asking her to wake up. He blamed himself, her, his friends, everyone who lied to him. He blamed this world. He punched the wall beside him again and again, made his five left fingers red and screamed so loud. His voice sounded brutal, angry, sad and pity. No one dared to stop him, no one could handle this situation.

That situation remained silent for a couple minute until Leeteuk approached him, tried to calm him down, walked slowly but sure until his hand tapped on Donghae's shoulder.

"Hae, she did it for your best"

The other just kept silent, hoped Leeteuk can make him better because they could only hope for everything now.

Donghae stood up from his knees, faced Leeteuk, tears all over his gentle eyes. Everyone could see his sadness expression wore on his face, clearly. 

"What best? You don't understand me hyung, you can't" softly, quietly, he was too tired to scream again.

"You're the one who don't understand yourself Hae!"

"Why all of you did this to me, why hyung, why??" 

Donghae saw every single of eyes in that room, waited for a good answer and his eyes met with Jessica's longer than the other, to let her answer everything and explain everything, but Jessica just kept crying non stop, she couldn't be able to explain it. Until finally those gentle and awesome eyes met Leeteuk, asked for an answer.

Leeteuk sighed at first before explaining

"Do you remember the first time you heard yoona fall from stage, you acted like a fool, you couldn't controll yourself, you blamed everyone, you blamed yourself..." Leeteuk stopped for a second, suddenly he remembered the moment when Donghae was worried about Yoona. He was too much, he was the one who was afraid to see the stage again, he was the one who had traumatic about the stage, not Yoona but him. Leeteuk knew he loved Yoona so much even not just loved her but he was part of Yoona. Yoona was his everything, his world, his day. He knew it.

"....So she doesn't want you to be like that again, she doesn't want to make you worry about her too much"

Donghae kept quiet, he lifted his head and saw the other members who stood in front of him again. Their eyes kinda talked to him, said that they agreed with Leeteuk's answer. Donghae back to saw Leeteuk's eyes, deeply. He hated his reason, still hated it even though it made sense. He couldn't accept it, he was her boyfriend after all, what was wrong with worried about her too much. He just wanted to be angry to Leeteuk now, wanted to yell at everyone in that time, but remembering Yoona was being operated now, he was too scared to lose her. 

"I Just dont wan't to lose him hyung, I couldn't lose her, I dont want hyung, I dont want tooo" tears fell from his eyes, he sobbed and started to cry so hard. This was the second time he cried so hard after he lost his dad. He couldn't control his sadness again, he just didn't want to lose the person he loved. 

"We don't want too Hae, I don't want to lose Yoona too" Leeteuk hugged him, showed his manner, tried to calm Donghae, tried to make him stop crying even though himself cried now.