"... DENYING is NOT the best way to escape because the more you hide, the more it kills you inside... Though my memory is fading my heart and my smiling eyes will not leave you... FOREVER..."   KYUHYUN POV   Tonight is like an ordinary night for me. Ever since I "broke up" with Ryeowook, I always found myself infront of my mini bar indulging every drop of wine I picked from the rack. Sometimes I have my drinking buddy who happens to be my diva manager Kim Heechul but now I preferred to be alone.    I glanced at a particular empty wine bottle resting on the counter top, 'THAT ONE IS MY FAVORITE AND IT TOOK ME MONTHS TO HAVE IT BUT I MANAGED TO FINISHED IT IN ONE SITTING! STUPID KYU! YOU'RE ALWAYS STUPID!'   With an unstable gait I managed to get a couple bottles of beer and soju. Once Changmin and I tried this soju and beer combination and I could tell that the after effect is HORRIBLE! Maybe a terrible hang over can help me forget about Ryeowook even for a day.    I expertly pour the beer and soju in a pitcher and grab a shot glass. Ahra noona isn't here until tomorrow morning so I have plenty of time to finish this drinking session of mine.    Shot after shot after shot.    That's what I did. Every drop of alcohol makes my throat suffer a burned sensation but the hell I care with that! I should be immune with the PAIN right? Since I've been experiencing it for the nth time day after day after day.    Hours passed and I'm still gulping down this liquor by myself as my surrounding slowly turned blurry and dark. With my drunken blood shot eyes I look at the clock, 2:05 am. I unconsciously gripped the silver bracelet on my left hand.   'RYEOWOOK-AH, I MISS YOU! THERE'S NEVER A DAY THAT I DIDN'T THINK OF YOU EVEN FOR A SECOND. WILL I BE ABLE TO HEAR YOUR SWEET VOICE AGAIN? WILL I BE ABLE TO HOLD AND KISS YOU JUST LIKE BEFORE? BABY, I LOVE YOU! THAT WILL NEVER EVER CHANGE, IT'LL BE THE SAME TILL THE DAY I DIE.'   Another hour passed, I'm able to finish the entire pitcher 'till the last drop. With a desperate desire to bring myself to bed, I drag my wiggling legs to walk away from the bar. I made it half way through the living room when I lost my balance and topple to the ground with a thud.   'STAND UP YOU LITTLE PIECE OF !! DON'T BE MISERABLE AS YOU ALREADY NOW!!'   After what seems like eternity and several times of stumbling, I finally reached my bed. I lifelessly drown myself onto the soft material for few minutes. As much as I want to comply with what my mind wants me to do; that's to sleep. My heart wants to hear that familiar voice... again.    To call or not to call.   It's like a mantra inside my head for a while before deciding to do the last one. If I will die tonight, hearing Ryeowook's voice for the last time is the best thing I'll be having before saying hello to Judas.    I took my phone and dial his number, I wish he'll answer it.   'PLEASE WOOKIE-AH ANSWER YOU GODDAMN PHONE NOW!!'   As if the angels in heaven grant my wish, after the 3rd ring, a sleepy Ryeowook answered the phone.   "H-hello?" his groggily mumbling voice made me smile in an instant.   Silence.   "H-hello?" he ask again, I bet he's loosing his patience now.   "B-baby..." I finally said, badly anticipating whether he'll end the call or stay on the line.   This time the little bunny on the other line is the one who kept his silence.   "K-Kyu?"   "Y-yes baby it's me. I'm sorry to disturb your sleep. I badly want to hear your voice. P-please don't hang-up..."   Silence.   "K-Kyu... why are you still awake? It's almost 4 in the morning."   "I c-can't sleep, baby. I miss you..."   "I-I m-miss you too, Kyu..."   Silence.   "Kyu? are you still there?"   "Yeah. I'm glad to hear that baby. That's enough for me. Now go back to sleep. Good night little bunny.."   "K-Kyu.. I-I'm going t-to Macau..."   '!! HE'S LEAVING ME FOR GOOD..'   "R-really?"   "Yes. I'll be leaving in a couple of days. B-but..."   "But why?"   "I-I want to see you before I leave. I have something to give to you. Is that okay?"   'OF COURSE IT'S NOT OKAY!'   "Of course it's okay. When and Where?"   "You remember the place where you gave me the photo book? Let's meet there tomorrow around 7 pm. How about that?"   "I think it's good. I'll see you then little bunny."   "T-thanks Kyu. I-I..."   "I know you still do, Wookie-ah."   "B-babe..."    "Ssshhh... baby... please don't cry.. Now go back to sleep."   "Please don't hang-up, Kyu. Please.."   "I won't. I'll sing a song for you."   "T-thank you.."   Listen 
Can't you hear it? 
A little whisper
I'll be with you wherever I can hear you   Even if you are far away there is a wind that calls you Excitement that only we know reaches the end of the blue sky   Be by my side Hold my hand
As we listen to the wind what the little whisper said   We can fly into the sky

We can forget about everything in that moment
Because everything is all blue

Even tears scatter 

The Wind takes them away

In that moment you and I can be together   Even before I ended the song I heard Ryeowook's heavy and steady breathing. I guess he's back to his deep slumber. A smile curved up my lips which I hadn't experience since the scandal came out. As always, Ryeowook never failed me. Even in our current status, he managed to bring a smile on my face. I wonder if I made him smile too?   I checked on the clock, 4:20 am.    As much as I want to keep him on the other line, I can't.    'I STILL DO LOVE YOU TOO, BABY...' I mutter and ended the call.   -----*****----- 9:30 am.   The front door opened, bringing in a gorgeous looking Cho Ahra with her two huge luggage bag. She scanned the entire ground floor looking for Kyuhyun, but she failed to locate her