How did I turn that weak?

How did I lost myself without even realizing?

How did l let myself fall that much in love?

I fell in my own trap…

I clenched on my dress, right on the place where my heart was beating crazily. Strange thing, this thing called ‘body’… I was feeling as if I was going to break soon and still, my heart was beating strongly in my chest. Maybe I was dying…maybe my heart was going to explode in my chest, making all the blood rush out of my body…maybe…

I curled up under the cover and bit my fist so that my sobs could not escape my mouth. How did I managed to get like that? Pitiful and fragile just like a broken porcelain that was glued together too many times… How exactly did the almighty playgirl, Cho Ae Ri, get in that state of mind? Why did I let my heart skip a beat for him? Why did I trusted him with my own life?

Why did I came back?

To what?

For what?

Why did I let go of that Paradise when in Hanyang all that was waiting for me was a living Hell?

To be strangers till we meet again…

♃~✵~♃

“Ae Ri, you look like a walking dead right now, you know that?”Jun Hyung’s voice came to me all of a sudden. “Watch that! Tsk tsk tsk!”

I looked at the books that were scattered all over the floor. “Sorry…I’m just a little bit tired. That’s all,”I gave out a pale smile.

“What’s wrong with you lately? You’ve been spacing out too often.”

“Nothing. I’m just tired. I need to go to classed. Father should be back soon, so be good, alright?”I waved him goodbye.

Spacing out? More like spacing in…because there was an abyss caving inside of me.

I stepped inside the Academy’s courtyard and looked around. He was not there so I could…

“Ae Ri.”

I froze, dropping the book I was holding. The wind browsed its pages as it fell opened.