Chapter 17
My heart is yours
Jongwoon is in front of Siwon's place. He rang the bell and after a few seconds the door opened. Siwon beckoned him to enter. They went to sit on a couch in Siwon's living room. Jongwoon felt nervous.
He was the first to break the silence,
"I'm sorry for asking you to meet at such a short notice"
"It's alright. Honestly, I never expected you to contact me again. I thought you would just go without telling me." Siwon said with no malice
"What?" Jongwoon asked, not knowing what to reply.
"Did you think about it like I told you?"
"I like you" Jongwoon said.
Siwon smiled softly at him, "I know. But it's different with him, right?"
"I'm sorry." A tear rolled down his cheek. Siwon leaned closer to wipe it.
"It's not your fault. The heart wants what it wants."
"I should've thought about things more carefully before dating you. I was so oblivious."
"I really like you and with the short amount of time I've known you, I fell inlove, Jongwoon. I'm not going to lie to you, it hurts a lot but, like you said you didn't know any better. Maybe, I came into your life to make you see what you can't."
"I'm so sorry." Jongwoon's tears continue to flow. He hates what he has done to the younger. He was unfair.
Siwon wiped his tears again, cupping the older's face on both of his hands.
"I have forgiven you, even before you aplogized."
Jongwoon held Siwon's hands that was holding his cheeks. He can't stop his tears, Siwon's kindness was too much.
"I love you, hyung. That's why, I want you to be happy. That's why, I'll let you go."
Jongwoon proceeded to hug the other muttering 'sorry' throughout. When his tears subsided, he looked at Siwon in the eye and thanked him. For his kindness, his love, and understanding. Most importantly, for making him realize how blind he was. He was very lucky to have met Siwon.
They went to the door and before Jongwoon could go, Siwon hugged him tight. It lasted for a while then he let go of the older and he jokingly muttered, "You would still go to watch and support the basketball team, right?" Jongwoon smiled at him.
When the older was finally out of the door, he rested his back on the door and cried his heart out. Siwon didn't want to cry in front of the other, he knows Jongwoon would have a harder time leaving if he cried. He love him too much. Even if it means he'll be the only one left with a broken heart, he'll endure it. Someday, not too long he hopes, his heart would heal. For now, he
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