When I woke up the next morning I realized what happened. Like I wasn't even there last night. I mean nothing really happened. But I did kiss him. And he definetly kissed back. But it was as if when I woke up I was regretting everything. I immediately sat up and woke him up on accident.

"Hyung are you ok?" He asked carefully.

"Fine. I think. I.. gotta go." I got up and walked out of his room without another word. 

I was freaked out. I don't know what I was thinking last night. I wasn't thinking. My heart just said go for it. God dammit. I can't do this. I would only hurt him more now. He looked really upset when I walked out. I didn't want to think about it. I went up to my room and music. I tried to pay attention to it but I couldn't. All I could think of was the way it felt to kiss him. Like every ounce of my body was craving him. 

I heard him get up and turn on his music. He started singing and  I listened for a few minutes. Then I had to stop.

Stop thinking about him. It won't work. You can't fall for him. I don't care how much you want him. Just STOP! 

I could still hear his voice. I wanted to scream. Instead I put in headphones. That actually made things worse. I wanted to listen to him. I was yearning for it. 

Dammit Jeon Jungkook get out of my head. 

At this point I was on the edge of screaming. I had to get up and go for a walk or something. I couldn't sit in there any longer. I walked out a