Some people never change (JK POV)
Why did it have to be you?After that night I swore to myself I would get over him. That this was just a phase. I didn't need him. I didn't want him. I didn't love him. I didn't have to have him in my life to survive. I could make it without him.
Then there was the truth.
I never got over him
It wasn't just a phase
I did need him
I did want him
I did love him
I did need him in my life to survive
I couldn't make it without him.
I spent months and months trying to get over him. Forget everything. Some nights I would pray that in the morning I would not even remember anything he ever said to me. I started to fall into a deep dark hole. It was ok down there. I was alone, I didn't have to talk to anyone. Taehyung was never there. But it was lonely. I didn't talk to any of the other members. I sat alone and made it through the day alone.
This was what it was like for Ky. Sitting alone with no one to notice her. It was the only solace i found. Knowing that this was what she went through. It made me feel a little better. And worse at the same time. I wasn't going to end up like her. Was I? Maybe I was. I didn't want to but maybe I didn't have a choice. Maybe this was all planned out already.
I didn't think I had a problem until I started having to hide my wrists too. I would wear long sweaters and try as hard as possible to keep them hidden. I didn't want Joon or Jin to find out especially. I would get this long speech
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