As I held him in a hug I thought about everything that happened. The kiss, telling him I was done. I really messed up. The fact that he even wants to still talk to me like this is insane. I don't deserve it and I know that. I messed up and I know that too. But part of me still wants to wrap my hands around his neck and just kiss him good and hard.

He turns to me and looks me dead in the eyes.

"Do you really love me?" he asks with a bit of a sweet edge to his voice. 

I think about it. Do I? I mean he haunts my waking thoughts. And even my dreams. I can't get his voice out of my head. And everytime I see him I want to kiss him. Did I love him.

I smile. "I adore you. I love you Kookie." I say and look at his smile. It's like those words make his entire existence worth it. 

To me he was practically everything. He should know that. But what would he say.

"Do you love me?"
I watched his smile fade for a minute and then his eyes went soft.

"Yeah, I love you Hyung." 

I smile and he leans closer in. I feel his lips brush mine before he pulls back.

"I have to know." He says.

"Know what?"
"I have to know that if we are going to love each other that you won't change you mind again. I fell in love with you twice. Don't make me do it again. I have to know that this will work. Even if we fall out I have to know."

I think about what he's saying. I realize that everything he is saying is because