We got back to the dorm after the show. I was already tired as hell even though it was only 6. We decided to make it an easy night. Joon and Jin went to go get us ramen while we sat on the couch and watched the television. I don't even remember what we watched. For the life of me I couldn't focus. All I could think about was what happened that morning. 

I did what I had been wanting to do. I just bursted into his room. I couldn't focus and I could hear his voice. I sat at his door for a good 2 minutes wondering if I should do it. And then I just did. I sat on his bed. He didn't have a shirt on but it was fine. I wasn't too worried about it. He might've been slightly embarrassed. I just couldn't stop myself. 

I think about it for a while later. Maybe he knew that it was driving me insane. Was it making him crazy like this too or was it just me? I don't remember. What I do remember was that night. 

I heard him get up at around 11 and start walking around. I was in the kitchen with a cup of coffee. Sleeping wasn't an option most nights. He came out and saw me.

"Hyung, why are you awake?" He asked.

"never mind that. Why are you awake?"

"You know the nightmares as well as I do Hyung." 

I nodded. I had them too. And when he would tell me about them I could practically see it like it was my own dream. 

"Are you ok?"

He nodded. "I will be. How did you get over them?"

I smile. "You guys. I found solace