I never seemed to get better. My body ached. For so long I just wanted to get better. But I saw him getting better and that's all I really needed anyway. My wish was granted. He would be ok.

We took a team trip to the beach. We rented a house right next to the ocean and we would have a fire everynight. I watched everyone be happy. It made me smile more than I had in months. I still didn't feel great. But I could feel myself getting better.

It was our last night at the house. The sun was setting over the ocean turning the sky orange and pink. It was honestly beautiful. We all stood around the ocean watching it. Joon and Jin had their arms around each other. So did Yoongi Jimin and Hobi. Jungkook and I stood alone for a while.

I wanted to just wrap my arms around him and tell him it would be ok. But how? He probably still hated me. I thought about everything that had happened leading up to now. The walk to the convienence store. His constant sleeping me. Me barging in his room because I couldn't focus. His voice. The night we spent together. That kiss. The kiss after it. Everything

How had we gotten here?

How did it all end up like this?
I walked around him. I walked up behind him and wrapped my arms around his waist. I lied my head on his shoulder.

"It will all be ok Kookie." i said.

I felt him lean in and get comfortable in me. 

I held on as tight as I could. I wasn't letting him go.

He tried to mo