Chaeyoung pov
I go to my room to take my Pajama and tell sana unnie that i will stay with mina unnie for the night, as i open the door i see sana unnie and tzuyu laughing like nothing happen, *seriously why no one care she was your ing crush and best friend, what the hell is happen with the two of them, are their mind out already?* As soon as i enter i don't care about them, I don't even look at them i straight forward to my cupboard and take what i need and said

"sana unnie i will stay in your room for the night you will stay in here" i said to her with cold tone, and the two of them have a curious face
"but chae..." before sana unnie can finish it i already out of the room and slam the door strongly anger really eat me up and i leave the two of them without saying anything 

I rushed go to mina unnie room, i really want to meet her cause i already miss her and i don't want to leave her in this kind of situation. When i arrived i hear a sob as i hold the door handle  *a~ahh that must be mina unnie, i really useless i can't even make her happy, I'm just selfish child with a lot of ego, i see you alone and unvoiced, I want to help you. Alone and crying, I want to hug you. Alone and dreaming, I want to sleep next to you, i really want too but i know even if i can I'm not the one you need, I'm just replacement for tzuyu, ughh i already know it hurt so much why i still decide to do it, stupid heart* 

i decide not to runaway anymore and pretend like nothing happen again, i open the door bravely, walk straight foward to mina unnie, throw my beg and hug her thighly 

"I'm really sorry unnie I'm just a selfish little kid that didn't even care about you, I'm really sorry unnie,  I'm so useless and i can't make you happy... I'm sorry unnie" 

without realize it tears already stream down, i really are selfish , i hate myself but i can't handle it i really want mina unnie i've been waiting for her for a long time i can't wait anymore, ughhh. I still hug her for a few minute and she still cry until she tired and sleep in my embrace, i put her down, my hand beside her head, our face just a centimetre away, i can smell her jasmine scene, she look really beautiful especially her lips that always show me my favorite view, her gummy smile 

*i really want to taste her lips* i don't even think twice cause lust really eat me as i kiss her tender lips, i can't wait anymore as i start moving my lips and the most shocking thing is she hold my waist and kiss me back *aren't she sleep? Did i wake her?* then she said "tzuyu..aa" ughh so that's tzuyu,that's not me how she think she kissing it's really hurt but i don't care as i start kissing her more roughly and she stop kissing me back and back to sleep, i decide to sleep too cause i don't want to miss the chance to sleep next to my crush and hug her in my sleep cause i busy kissing her when she though about someone else. 

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Alone and unvoiced, I want to help you
Alone and crying, I want to hug you
Alone and dreaming, I want to sleep next to you
The word is i take from the fanfic that i read, when i read that word it's really touch my heart deeply, sorru but i forgot the tittle of that fanfic but thanks to the one who make that fanfic 😀