KIM JONGIN

"All these anomalies in your code..." D.O. said as he eyed the screen, jotting down some notes into his tablet, "They keep getting worse."

I blinked, trying to decipher all the complex numbers and symbols on the screen. I was back at base, laid out on the examination table, a bracelet-like code analyser placed around my wrist as D.O. ran his tests.

"But I've been keeping my distance, like you said. Shouldn't it be getting better?"

"Not necessarily. You've already tipped the balance. And once the process starts, it's hard to stop. It's like a domino effect. What we do have some control over is whether the process speeds up, or slows down."

"And let me guess, the more time I spend with him, the more it speeds up."

"From what I've gathered so far, yes."

I paused for a long moment as I watched his solemn expression. "And where does it end?"

He looked down at his tablet, pursing his lips. "Let's hope we don't have to find out."

"Every time I come here you keep telling me all these problems. I've yet to hear any solutions."

D.O sighed. "Kai... Code is an incredibly complex thing. It's balance is delicately held together by strings thinner than your hair. And your case is one of a kind. I need to keep collecting data before I can come up with a 'solution' as you so put it. To somehow place the block that will stop the dominos from falling... You know, one that doesn't involve you leaving the love of your life forever."

"Any minute now," I chuckled humorlessly, shaking my head. "I can't keep going like this... Sehun is starting to suspect something is off. Every time I'm around him some crazy happens. My nose bleeds, I throw up, my chest feels like it's literally about to explode... And every time I'm not, he keeps asking me where I'm going, why I'm avoiding him, what am I hiding... I don't know what to do anymore."

"It's too late for you to leave him now. You have already been bound to him," D.O. sighed, "Kai. I promise you my team and I are working tirelessly to find a cure. Just hang in there."

"I'm trying..." I sighed as D.O took off the analyser and the screens went black.

"That should be it for today." He said. I didn't reply or move, blankly staring ahead as I pondered over what I was going to do once I got back. Lie some more, probably. Like I've been doing since the very beginning.

I might as well just tell him the truth... Right?

"Hey..." D.O huffed. "I probably shouldn't do this but... Man you look so miserable that even I feel bad for you."

I curiously watched him as he shuffled through one of his drawers, pulling something out and studying it for a long minute.

With a sigh, he made his way over to me and handed me a small bottle with a bluish unearthly glowing fluid in it. "It's not exactly a cure but... this should help alleviate your symptoms. Take 5ml at a time, orally. It's a temporary fix until we come up with something better."

I accepted the bottle, carefully studying the fluid inside it as D.O handed me a syringe. "So you mean... If I drink this, I can get close to him without having a... reaction?"

"Essentially, yeah. I spent all week developing it. But be careful... It doesn't stop the process, you just won't feel it. It should be very effective, but not full-proof. Just... don't overdo it."

"Don't overdo it like...?" I asked curiously, quirking up a brow.

"Well don't have with him, for one," he retorted.

"So... everything else should be okay?"

D.O rolled his eyes, "You teenagers and your hormones. When you feel like your body is starting to have a reaction and you know, not the good type, then you should probably stop,"

"Alright, I got it." I chuckled as I pocketed the bottle and the syringe, "Thanks. This is perfect... I owe you one."

D.O shrugged nonchalantly, going back to tampering with one of his devices. "Just doing my job. Go on now, I'm sure your guy misses you."

"Not as much as I miss him. See you next time."

Before I could leave, he spoke up again.

"Please, be careful Kai."

Not knowing what exactly he meant by that, I simply nodded. I clicked away on my coder, immediately disappearing from sight.

 

It was a sunny Saturday afternoon. I walked into the dorms in high spirits for the first time in the past week. From the constant checkups with D.O to focusing in class, to trying to keep some distance with Sehun so as to not risk anymore complications, to say that I was stressed was an understatement.

For one, I was trying hard to take an actual interest in dance, and manually work on my skills rather than using my coder. I wanted to feel more invested and put in more emotion. So when I danced, I thought about Sehun.

Sehun was like an addiction to me... I literally couldn't live without him. And yet at the same time it was like I had a deadly allergy to him. My head was in constant contradiction, and I racked my brain over and over for some sort of answer. But there was simply no way. And it made me think... Why was it possible for me to fall so deeply in love with him in the first place if it went against the very innate concept of my code? Why was he chosen for me?

They said the machine was never wrong.

I wanted to think that maybe I was just unlucky, that the machine flubbed and I should have just chosen someone else. But then when I thought about Sehun; his smile, his warmth, his beautiful pale white skin, his sweet personality, the way he made me feel by just being around... I couldn't help but think no. Sehun was meant for me. He was absolutely perfect and if I could go back in time, I would do it all again. I couldn't imagine myself falling in love with anyone else. That was the one irrevocable conclusion I had come to.

I'm not giving up on you. I'll do anything to have you, Sehun. Even if it kills me.

I stared at the strange blue fluid in the bottle. Let's take you for a test drive then, shall we? I wanted to spend the entire day with Sehun and I didn't want any more distractions. And I figured I really wanted to make up for all the days I painstakingly kept my distance from him.

There were moments where it was so obvious he was frustrated and wanted to get close to me, but I kept finding one reason or another to stay away. Little did he know it frustrated me way more than it did him.

I took 5ml into the syringe and ejected it into my mouth, swallowing the bitter fluid with a frown. God... That texture is just horrible. Shivering slightly, I put the bottle away and lay down on my bed, sighing.

Today's gonna be a good day.

About half an hour later, the door unlocked and Sehun walked in, laughing heartily. I immediately sat up straight to greet him but paused when I saw Yixing walk in with him.

"Oh, hey there." I said, trying to hide my disappointment. I really was hoping Sehun was alone so I could just jump him or something. Guess it'll have to wait. I hope Yixing's not staying for long.

"Oh, you're already back from your daily escapade." Sehun said in a dry tone as he kicked off his shoes and jumped into his bed. I couldn't help but chuckle. He didn't hesitate to show that he was annoyed with all the secrecy. I would have changed that if I could. But I knew the truth would only make him freak out and run for the hills.

"Hey Jongin," Yixing greeted as he went to sit next to Sehun on his bed. "How have you been? I barely see you around lately."

"Ah you know... Been practicing a lot these days."

"I don't understand why you overwork yourself so much. You're already pretty good."

"I have a lot to work on, actually," I said with a shrug. "You can never be too good."

"That's a good attitude... Just don't push yourself too hard and end up passing out like this lady over here," he said, poking Sehun who immediately smacked his hand off.

"Shut up, you ," he retorted, "Anyways here's that video I wanted to show you..."

Yixing leaned closer as Sehun showed him something in his phone. I couldn't help but feel just a tiny bit salty that he got to sit so close to Sehun. Come on dude just leave already.

Yixing took his time. I sat on my bed, browsing through various dance videos, waiting for Yixing to just leave so I could steal Sehun away. But he just stayed and they went from one long conversation to the next. Eventually I found myself huffing in annoyance as I watched some tutting videos.

As much as I was annoyed, the dances really piqued my interest. I found myself trying to replicate them, only to look ridiculous and have the other two guys in the room stare at me and laugh at my pathetic attempts. I rolled my eyes at them and continued to watch.

After a good two hours, Yixing seemed to finally have mercy on my soul and eventually excused himself to leave.

"Bye, Yixing," I said, a little too excitedly as I went to close the door behind him politely.

I then turned around to find Sehun immersed in his phone. I made my way over to him, sitting down at the edge of his bed.

"Hey," I said with a smile. He looked up at me, quirking a brow.

"Uh... Hey." He said, before looking back down at his phone. I swiftly snatched it away from him, making him let out an annoyed "Hey!"

He went to grab it but I moved it away, then he went to grab it again and I grasped his hand. He tried with his other hand and I threw his phone to my bed, grinning at him.

"You done?" He groaned.

"Nope," I said, "Never done with you."

"Very funny," he rolled his eyes, standing up to get his phone. I harshly pulled him by the arm so he landed right on my lap with a yelp. Satisfied, I held him by the waist.

"What are you doing?" He asked, face slightly going red as he stared down at me shyly.

"What? I just missed you"

"No you didn't," he grumbled, "you've been ignoring me all week."

I shook my head, "I really wasn't. I just had a lot to do."

"Sure thing, busy guy."

"Go out with me." I said suddenly, watching his eyebrows quirk up.

"Go out where?"

"You know, like on a date."

It was obvious he was trying to hold back the smile that threatened to form on his lips.

"Please?" I added sweetly.

"Took you long enough." He finally said, rolling his eyes. I grinned at him.

"I'll take that as a yes?"

"Only because I'm bored and have nothing else to do today."

"Yeah right." I mocked, leaning in to peck him on the lips. "Come on then, we're losing daylight. Thanks to someone."

 

I took Sehun out to a Western style restaurant at the rooftop of a mall. They had beautiful purple lights and candles decorating the ceilings and walls. Leather chairs and mahogany tables on the hardwood floor surrounded us as I led him through the restaurant. I booked us a table on the outside so we could enjoy the city lights from where we sat. Thankfully enough there were not many people there and the booths were widely spaced, so we had some sort of privacy.

"Wow this place is beautiful." Sehun commented, looking around in awe.

"Yeah... Stumbled upon it a couple of weeks ago."

"Looks expensive as though." He commented as he reached for the menu.

"You don't have to worry about money."

"I do actually, my parents ain't multi-millionaire drug dealers."

I rolled my eyes, "Excuse me, what are you implying?"

"I mean, all those meals you've bought me aren't exactly cheap. I'm still mulling over how I'm gonna pay off that debt."

"You don't have to pay me back, period. My parents are drug dealers after all."

"I think that's even more reason for me to pay you back." He laughed, and I joined in soon enough.

"You can pay me back by taking me out next time." I said with a wink.

Sehun smirked, "What makes you so sure I'm gonna ask you out?"

"I mean, I'm hoping you will..."

"Well you're certainly not a bad date..."

"But not the best you've ever had?"

"We'll... circle back around to that one. At the end of our date. For now, let's take our order."

"Alright... I am starving anyway."

A few minutes later the waiter came to take our orders. When he was gone, I focused my attention back on Sehun.

"So... Come clean. Where have you been disappearing off to everyday? And don't avoid the question!"

I gulped. I knew that question was coming sooner or later. "Well... I've been going to these doctor appointments. Turns out I've been having some allergies and that's what's been causing those fits. They're not sure what the cause is but the doctor's been calling me for regular checkups."

Sehun frowned, "Seriously? Why couldn't you just tell me then?"

"I... Didn't want you to worry."

"You... Ugh," Sehun groaned in frustration, "Dude. The whole point is for me to worry and be there for you... It pisses me off when you just shut me out. How do you expect me to be your..." He trailed off, staring down at his lap.

I cocked a brow, "Be my...?"

He blushed softly, looking around to avoid my eyes, "You know, like... Be your boyfriend, and stuff..."

I grinned, reaching forward and taking his hand in mine. You never cease to surprise me, Sehun.

He looked up at me bashfully as I smiled warmly at him.

"Trust me, I would love nothing more."

His blush seemed to darken at that and I could tell it made him really happy. "But... You're gonna have to be honest with me first. About everything."

"I did just tell you, didn't I?"

"Well it doesn't explain why you were avoiding me when you were around."

I sighed, "They said that... what I have might be contagious... I was just scared I'd spread something to you." God, all these lies are giving me a headache.

Sehun frowned. "You don't seem so scared anymore."

"Because they confirmed earlier today that it wasn't contagious so... I immediately took the chance to steal you away for the day."

Sehun looked at me skeptically before eventually sighing. "Okay... And you're not lying to me, right?"

I stiffened a little. I hated lying to him, but I had no choice. I kept trying to convince myself that it was all for the best. That telling Sehun the whole truth would only bring trouble and scare him away.

"I'm not."

He nodded slowly, intertwining his fingers with mine. "Okay."


 

"Nahh... We gotta do this one more time!" I groaned as Sehun stuck his tongue out at me.

"Just admit you at this game."

"I will do no such thing!" I said challengingly as I restarted the game for the fifth time and began to pick a song.

"Don't you get tired?" Sehun laughed breathily as he watched me, amused.

"Not until I beat you." I eventually picked a song but once it started, I realized I had made a huge mistake. It was way too fast for me. As I struggled to move my legs fast enough to hit all the arrows in time, Sehun was hitting every single beat with the greatest of ease.

"Come on you gotta do better than that!" Sehun teased as he watched me struggle, legs stomping around clumsily. It went on like that for a while but before I knew it, even Sehun was missing all his notes. I looked to him and found him leaning against the metal bar, panting. I immediately rushed to his side, holding him up.

"Hey... Are you okay?"

"Yeah," he panted, "Just... need a second..."

"Come on," I let him lean against me as we stepped off the dance platform, leading him to the nearest bench.

"Finally!" Some kids cheered as they watched us leave the arcade game after watching us for like five turns, jumping on the platform.

"Come on, take your breath." I soothed, brushing some hair off his face. Suddenly I felt so guilty for making him play so many turns, completely forgetting that he was anemic. Way to go, you inconsiderate .

"I'm...fine," he whispered as he struggled to catch his breath.

"I'm sorry..."

"For what?" He chuckled softly, "That was really fun..."

"I know but we should have at least taken a break," I grumbled, lightly massaging his shoulder, "I'm sorry, I just got a little too excited."

Sehun rolled his eyes, "Chill out, dude. I'm fine."

I bit my lip, watching as he slowly regained his composure. "Okay, hold on. I'll go get you something to drink."

I stood up and walked off before he could stop me, making my way over to the bubble tea place right across the arcade. A few minutes later I was back at his side with a drink, handing it to him. His eyes lit up as soon as he saw it.

"Hey, you got my favourite!" He said excitedly as he popped the draw in it, taking a hearty sip of his chocolate bubble tea. I smiled as I watched him. "Want some?" He offered, to which I politely shook my head.

"Too sweet for me."

"That's because you're already too sweet," he laughed, taking another sip as he eyed me.

"Oh Sehun, did you just flirt with me?" I asked with a wide grin.

"And what if I am?" He quirked a brow.

I leaned in closer, slyly placing my hand on top of his. "Be careful... I might just end up kissing you right here, in front of all these people."

I saw a twitch in his eyes, like he wanted to say just do it but couldn't. I knew he was still scared of coming out, and I didn't mind. We could take at as slow as he liked. I watched the blush spread to his cheeks as he gazed at me.

"How about that movie then?" He suggested, staring at my lips. Yeah, something tells me were not watching no movie. I couldn't help but feel my heart skip a beat. God, he's so hot.

I looked down at my watch, "Let's go then."

 

We sat side-by-side at the last row, and to our luck the hall was almost empty. Not that we were doing anything inappropriate really, because Sehun was so engrossed in the movie from the moment it began. But it was nice to just hold hands with him in a public place and not worry about anyone looking.

A quarter way through the film and I lifted up the divider between our seats so I could lean in closer to him, placing my head on his shoulder. His hand tightened around mine and I couldn't help but smile. This is literally the best day of my life.

"I didn't think I'd actually be interested in this movie, but it's pretty good." He commented.

"Yeah... Although I think I'm enjoying you a lot more." I said slyly, watching a smile slowly stretch on his lips.

"You're trying to distract me aren't you?"

"Maybe I am..." I whispered into his ear, trailing a hand down his thigh. His eyes didn't turn away from the screen for a second but he was still smiling.

"Shh I'm trying to focus."

"Alright, alright," I grumbled, sitting back up straight with a pout. He pulled me right back to him, quirking a brow.

"Who said you could go back?"

I stared at him for a long moment, the dim lighting shining on his face. He leaned in and kissed me softly on the lips as I just sat there, feeling like my breath was stolen away from me. It didn't last long because not two seconds later and he pulled away. I bit my lip as my eyes fluttered open.

"There'll be more later. Promise," he smirked, as if sensing how much I wanted him. He always did make me lose sense of myself. Huffing softly, I rested my head back on his shoulder and turned my attention back to the movie.

"There better be."


 

Just as Sehun locked the door behind us, I wasted no time in pinning him up against it and pressing my lips against his like I'd been waiting to all night. He immediately responded, taking his jacket off and wrapping his arms around me, pulling me closer.

"Sehun..." I whispered between kisses as he began to my own jacket, shedding it off my body and pressing his body up against mine. Our breathing was hot and heavy, lips sliding against each other in a hungry dance as we clumsily slid our shoes off. It was clear we were both waiting to get home as soon as possible so we could just jump each other. I knew I was waiting a long time to just kiss him with no inhibitions and show him how much I really wanted him.

Sehun began to back me up to his bed, pushing me down on it. He got on top of me, not once breaking our kiss. I was hot all over, and the heat eminating from his body was just dizzying. His hand played with my hair as he kissed me, slipping his tongue into my mouth. I moaned softly at the taste of him, rubbing my own tongue against his as he pressed himself down on me.

For the very first time, it was like his dominant side came out, and honestly I didn't mind it at all. He seemed possessive and I found it so y. I wanted to just hand myself over to him, give him everything he wanted and more.

"Mmm," he moaned as I ran my hands down his back, slipping a hand under the hem of his shirt. I felt like a wolf in heat, just dying to feel his skin against mine. I began to pull his shirt up and he eventually broke our kiss to take it off. I ran my hand down his beautiful toned chest in awe. His skin was so white and so smooth, and honestly all I could think about was running my tongue all over him. He bit his lip as he stared down at me, eyes clouded over.

He began to take off my own sweater and I didn't hesitate to shed it off, exposing my own skin. He took a long moment to just look me up and down, the lust and the desire clear as day in his eyes.

"This is crazy," he shook his head as if not believing the sight in front of him. "You're really here, right?" He cupped my cheek, caressing it gently with his thumb.

"I'm here," I assured, holding his wrist and softly kissing his palm.

"And you're not just gonna disappear on me again?"

I smiled, "No. Not unless I tell you first."

"Okay..." He sighed softly, as if in relief. He leaned down and connected our lips in a gentle, passionate kiss. His hands trailed down my arms and intertwined with mine. I felt the chills go down my spine in response. It was crazy how such a simple gesture could just make me feel so jittery all over. His tongue gently played with my lips, urging them apart. Oh God... Where did he learn to kiss like that? His chest was rubbing up against mine, and every single touch was spreading through my body like wildfire. I couldn't even help the soft moan that escaped my lips yet again.

I figured at that point I could literally let Sehun do anything to me.

He began to kiss down my neck, on it softly every now and again. I bit my lip as my eyes fluttered shut, just letting myself feel everything he was doing to my body.

"Sehun," I called out in a husky whisper as he harshly on my neck, surely leaving a mark.

"Yeah, baby..." He whispered, almost absentmindedly as he continued to his way down my chest. I clasped at his hair, arching my back up into him. My breathing was getting heavier. In my head I just kept thinking I love you. I wanted to say it so bad but held back. Hearing Sehun call me baby still felt so freaking amazing though. I could die in that very moment and I wouldn't regret a single thing.

I pulled him back up to me and just gazed at him for a moment, both of us panting, both of us disheveled. But at that moment Sehun looked so incredibly beautiful that I couldn't help but just stop and stare. I flipped us over so we were both lying on our sides, facing each other.

"What?" He whispered, looking down at my flushed lips and then back up to my eyes, almost as if disappointed that I stopped.

"I was just thinking... This feels so much like a dream." I studied every single feature of his face, wanting to remember that moment forever. But soon those features turned into a slight frown.

"A dream...?" He echoed, as if thinking over something in his head. I softly caressed his cheek and leaned in to kiss his lips. He seemed to melt into me almost instantly, running his hands up my back and wrapping around my neck, pulling me closer. A few seconds later, I pulled back and smiled at him.

"It's gonna be really hard to keep my hands off you from now on." I said, biting my lip.

"I guess that goes for both of us," he chuckled.

"I've been waiting so long to be with you like this... You don't even know." I shook my head, taking his hand in mine and kissing it. He stared at me, almost as if in disbelief.

"Jongin I... I feel like all this is too good to be true. I keep thinking that something will just come out of nowhere and ruin everything. I don't think I'll be able to handle that, I really can't."

I tightened my hold on his hand and pulled it into my chest. I knew Sehun was scared. I was scared too. Of hurting him more than anything.

I have to find a way.

"Everything will be fine. And I won't disappoint you... I won't hurt you, I promise. Just as long as you promise not to let me go."

From his eyes I could tell that he really wanted to give us an honest chance. He nodded, shifting closer to me.

"I promise."

And then we sealed that promise with yet another sweet kiss.

"You didn't tell me..." I said against his lips, suddenly remembering something, "Am I the best date you ever had or what?"

"Are you kidding?" He chuckled, " yeah, you are."

Oh Gosh, this long chapter took me forever to write! I hope it was okay though. I just wanted them to finally have some y time sooooo bad. I know you erts wanted it too (Hope it was actually y though and not just awkward lol)

Don't forget to leave your comments you guys! That makes me feel good, right in the kokoro T.T

Random song of the day for no particular reason: "Give me a Chance" by Lay

Until next time ^^