KIM JONGIN

You know you shouldn't do this.

You shouldn't risk it.

Sehun's not dumb... He could get suspicious.

Even with all these thoughts in my head, I still couldn't just leave Sehun like that. He had an important showcase in two days and he was very sick. I knew how much dancing met to him. How much the showcase meant to him. How could I just watch him like that? Showcase or not, I didn't want him to ever be in pain.

I knew it'd be suspicious if he suddenly woke up the next morning feeling perfectly fine after having a terrible cold just the night before. And on top of that, finding out I got sick instead. If there was one thing travelers weren't supposed to do, it was to reveal our existence to humans.

But I just cared about Sehun too much. If I could make him feel better, then I would take whatever risk I had to. I knew I could help him. I could take away his flu and transfer it into my own body. I didn't mind getting sick for a few days for Sehun.

After a good half an hour of tossing the thought around in my head as I lay in bed, I decided, screw it, I was going to do it.

I made my way to Sehun who was fast asleep in his bed and kneeled down next to it. I softly caressed his cheek, smiling as he leaned into my touch. It reminded me of the time I entered his dream and it filled me with warmth that he was always unconciously responding to my touch, as if blindly trusting me.

Please work...

I'd never actually done it before, but I knew how it was done. It didn't really seem all that complicated, either. My parents had warned me against using this ability a couple of times, but then again they warned me about going after Sehun, which was something I didn't regret at all and was never going to. Just like I wouldn't regret using this ability for him. I leaned in until our lips were just a few inches apart. I then closed my eyes and slowly in the air leaving his lips, concentrating hard. When I opened my eyes, there was an ethereal, blue glow between our lips. 

It's actually working...

I watched in awe as the blue glow entered my lips and eventually disappeared. Right away, I could feel the unpleasant soreness in my throat and the familiar fatigue in my body. I smiled and leaned away from him. 

You'll be just fine. 

I couldn't help but place a soft kiss on his cheek before makng my way back to bed.

It was the day of the showcase and I didn't even know how I was going to make it there that night. My flu was coming on a lot worse than I had expected. I could hardly get out of bed, my throat was so sore that it hurt to breathe  and my voice basically didn't exist. It didn't even feel like a normal flu at all. Everything just felt so odd and there was this constant uneasiness in my stomach that I couldn't shake off. A sense of foreboding which I couldn't begin to wrap my head around.

"Geez you're hot," Soojung frowned as she placed her palm on my forehead.

"Thanks, I get that a lot," I said feebly at an attempt on cheering her up. The girl had been holed up in the room with me all morning to keep me company, even though I told her she could leave.

"Is this really the time to be joking around? You're a mess," she sighed, "Looks like neither of us are going to the showcase today. I almost feel bad for Taemin. Well, not really"

"Stop being so hard on the guy," I chuckled, "And yes, we're going."

"Uh, no you're not," she said blankly, "You can't even get out of bed, let alone go the the damn showcase."

"I'll crawl if I have to, but I have to go."

She sighed exasperately, "Is all this because your roommate is performing tonight?"

"Yup. He invited me. I can't not go."

She huffed, "You're nuts about that guy."

I chuckled. Maybe I am.

"Is that jealousy I smell?" I asked teasingly, smirking.

She scoffed, "Yeah right. Don't flatter yourself. Seriously though, how are you gonna go to the showcase like this?"

"I just need to get better by tonight, somehow," I shrugged.

"So what you're just gonna expect some miracle to happen? I seriously think you should stay here and get some rest."

I rolled my eyes, "I'm tired of getting rest. I feel so pathetic holed up in here."

"You must have caught a really bad fever."

It's not just a fever, I thought to myself. Something else was wrong. I just didn't know what it was.

"You do know you're not forced to stay here and look after me. I'll be fine by myself."

"I'm just being a good friend, you ungrateful jerk."

"A good friend? So you're saying you'd do the same for Taemin?"

"No ing way," she retorted, looking straight up offended.

"Anyway, I have to bounce for a few hours. I'm meeting up with some friends."

"Finally. Run free. Send me a postcard. I'll see you at the showcase, alright?"

"You sure you don't want me to stop by later today?"

"Please don't."

". See you tonight... If you manage to get your off the bed that is," she scoffed, before leaving the room. I knew the girl was going out of her way to take care of me, and I was grateful for her help. But I didn't want to burden her any further.

Which was why I needed to figure out what was going on with my body. Why wasn't I getting better? If anything I was getting worse. My immune system was supposed to be pretty strong. Somehow it felt like I was being way more affected by this flu than Sehun would have. Not that I regretted what I did of course, but something was definitely not right with me.

Maybe I should contact the scientists about this...

Ugh... where did I leave my coder again? I sat up on the bed and managed to stand up with some difficulty, leaning against the wall for support. My limbs were all wobbly as if they were barely holding me up at all and I it was almost impossible to just walk. I found myself falling back on the bed pathetically in no time.

I hate my life...

Right then, the door clicked open and Sehun walked in, seeing me laying hopelessly on my bed.

"Hey, you okay?"

"Not even close..." I groaned, sitting up, "What're you doing here? Thought you'd be prepping for your performance tonight." Honestly, I just didn't want Sehun watching me struggle pathetically.

He sat next to me on the bed, placing a hand on my shoulder, "I just came to grab some stuff from the room. And well... to check on you."

"Thanks," I smiled gratefully.

"Listen, maybe I should take you to the doctor's. You look ghost pale." He said worriedly, placing a palm on my forehead, "You're really burning up, too."

I appreciated the offer, but I knew a doctor was not what would help me right now. Whatever was going on had something to do with my code. I could tell that much.

"I'll be fine. It's just a fever."

"Have you even looked at yourself in the mirror lately?"

"I... don't want to. Listen, I just want you to focus on your performance today, okay? I know it's important to you."

"Yeah but... So are you," He muttered, immedaitely blushing at what he said and staring down at his feet, "I mean, you're my roommate. Of course I'd worry about you."

I smiled at the blushing Sehun before me. Nice save.

"You worry too much about me."

"It's just... the way I am, I guess. To all my friends," he added and I couldn't help but feel a little disappointed at that. "I bumped into Soojung in the hallway earlier."

"Yeah, she stopped by to check on me today."

He nodded and cleared his throat, "It's cool that she comes all the way to boy's dorm to look after you. I think... she really cares about you."

"Yeah?" My lips curled up mischeviously.

"Uh-huh. So are you guys like... dating now?" He probed, lightly biting his lip nervously. There he goes again... how cute.

"Nope. Not yet, at least."

I watched in amusement as he let out a small sigh of relief.

"Besides... there's someone else on my mind," I added, just to .

"R-Really? Who?"

"It's a secret."

Sehun chuckled, "What, are you in middle school or something?"

I swatted him across his head as I laughed, already feeling a lot better by just talking to him. He laughed along with me, eyes scrunching up in pretty half-crescents. I couldn't help but stare, somewhat in awe. Out of all things, I liked his laugh the most.

We stared at each other for a while after that, smiles slowly fading. Surprisingly, he brought his hand up to my cheek, lightly carressing it. I bit my lip as I watched him, wondering what was going through his mind. His eyes weren't really giving away much, either.

"Is there anything I can do to make you feel better?" He muttered, sighing, "I just... I don't know why... I feel somewhat responsible for this. For your condition."

I smiled, shaking my head, "It's not your fault. Trust me."

He frowned at me, as if confused what I meant by that.

"There is something you could help me with though..." I said shortly after, "I've been having a pretty ty day and... I could really use a hug right now."

He blushed slightly but lifted a brow at me, "You sure I shouldn't be calling Soojung for this?"

I rolled my eyes, "I'm serious. Plus how do you know I didn't already?"

"Wait, did you?"

I rolled my eyes once again, "Sehun."

"Okay, okay," he laughed softly before scooching closer to me on the bed and wrapping his arms around my shoulders. I smiled and closed my eyes, circling my own arms around his waist, pulling him closer so it was more than just a regular "bro-hug". Fortunately, he didn't seem to mind it at all.

Maybe it was about time I made advances. Maybe I should show him my feelings. I knew he felt something for me. Someone eventually had to make the first move, right?

His embrace felt so warm and cozy, I completely forgot about how ty I was feeling that day. I listened closely to the sound of his steady breathing and his beating heart, feeling tranquil and wishing this moment could last forever.

But of course, nothing did.

He pulled away not longer after.

"That good enough for you?" Sehun asked, voice calm and a soft smile playing on his lips.

"Yeah... Thanks, Sehun. And consider that a good luck hug from me for your showcase."

"Thanks," he grinned, "I... have to get going soon."

"Go ahead. I'll come watch you today."

"You sure you'll be able to make it though? It's alright if you can't."

"No worries. I'll be there."

"Alright then... See you there."

I watched the boy grab the things he needed and leave the room. Despite everything, at least I was getting closer to Sehun again.

There was a sudden wet feeling above my lips. Frowning, I brought my fingers to said spot, only to later find out that it was blood.

What the... is my nose bleeding?

Frowning, I wiped the blood off, grabbing a tissue. The blood just kept on dripping and dripping, and it showed no signs of stopping anytime soon. Soon enough, three tissue were thoroughly soaked in blood. I frowned at the sight.

What is happening with me?

I began to feel dizzy as everything started going black.

I wasn't sure where I was, but it was bright and sunny. There were trees all around, like some sort of forest. The sounds of nature filled the air. It felt nice. Calming.

"Jongin," A soft, familiar voice called from behind me. I turned around to see a smiling Sehun there, dressed in all white and looking as beautiful as ever. There was an almost ethereal glow about him, like he was an angel.

"Sehun..." I made my way toward the boy, "Where are we?" 

"This is our special place," he smiled, walking towards me until we were just a few inches apart. He cupped my cheek gently.

"It's... beautiful," I breathed.

"So are you," he leaned toward me, "My sweet Kai."

"Kai?" I frowned. He wasn't supposed to know that name. But before I could say anything, there was a sudden sharp pain in my abdomen. I slowly looked down, body quivering and I gaped at the sight. I tried to scream but no noise left my lips.

There was a knife shoved deep into my stomach.

And the worst part was, Sehun was the one holding it.

"Se.....h..." I choked, legs giving out as I kneeled to the floor. I looked up at Sehun only to see a devilish smirk on his face, like he was happy with his handiwork. It contrasted with how angelic he looked.

"Good night, Kai," was the last thing I heard before everything went black.

I jumped up in my bed, gasping for air, hands unconsciously going down to my stomach. There was no knife, I wasn't bleeding. I let out a sigh of relief and lay back in my bed. I tried to calm down my labored breathing as I lay there, remembering every moment of that dream so vividly.

What kind of horrible ing dream was that?!

It took me a while to register everything that had happened. Sehun left the room. Then I had a nose bleed and I passed out. And then I had that horrible, vivid dream.

Wait... The showcase!

I immediately checked my phone for the time and scowled to see that it was 11 pm.

The showcase was long over. I'd slept through it.

"..."

That was when I realized that I didn't have a fever anymore. I was feeling just fine. Perfect, actually. The blood-soaked tissues were still lying there on the bed and my face scrunched up distastefully at the sight. I grabbed the tissues and tossed it into the nearby bin. I didn't want Sehun having to see that.

I just couldn't wrap my head around anything that was happening.

I decided with a sigh to just go have a long, hot shower and try to relax. I was already bummed out about missing the showcase after I'd been looking forward to it so much.

Well this has been one confusing, ty- day.

Sorry for the late update again! I got a little stuck with this chapter. Also it's a little shorter than usual so sorry about that too ^^ Hopefully the little bit of action (if you could even call it that) makes up for it lol

I'd love to hear your theories about what's going on so far!

Until next time :D