Lol. Sorry guys I had to do it! Hahaha. It's to keep things interesting :) Listen to this beautiful song by iKON. I'm sure you already know it by heart. Haha https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=blSCDrx0CDA

Hanbin's POV

You always waited for me
At the same place as always but
I was gone I was gone
Don’t trust me like a fool
I said I’d protect your forever
but it was all a lie, lie

I was stoic to everything around me ever since the break up. Why was I such a fool? How could I let go of a good thing right when I had it? 

Honestly, I thought she'd understand. After the incident where we almost got caught by Yunhyeong, I tried to stay low key. I got more and more paranoid that I stopped texting her ultimately. I forgot about how she'd feel. Right, there was more than one person in this relationship. I thought if I came back and act like nothing happened, things would fall right back into place but I was wrong. I was worried about her during the times I couldn't talk to her. Heck, it killed me when I had to stare at my phone waiting for her to stop calling. I didn't know why I felt that it was the right thing to do at that time. I also don't know why I had to hide her from the members. 

You always knew that
I’m a selfish kind of guy
I guess I felt burdened
By you when you were just asking for the slightest of attention
Without even leaving a single photo
like everyone else takes
Until the very last moment
We only think of me

That night, I felt a part of me die inside when she started crying. Hanbin-ah, how could you hurt such a pretty thing?, I thought. I couldn’t answer any of her questions. I felt guilty and mad at myself. Seeing how I broke her heart, broke mine back. 

I wanted to say sorry. 
I wanted to make the pain go away. 
I wanted to run after her. 
I wanted to do a lot of things, but how could I when I’ve just realized that it was I who broke the heart of the dearest person in my life. 

I ended up ordering dinner for one and a bottle of soju. And another bottle. And another bottle. You get the point. Anyway, the members started to look for me after a few hours.

“Hello?” trying to focus was the hardest thing to do at this time.
“Where are you?!” Jinhwan asked through the phone. “You missed more than 10 calls from all of us.”
Hearing his voice felt like a hit of reality. I couldn’t help but cry. “At this bbq place near Hongik,” I said. “Come here. Don’t bring the other members.” Unlike the other members, Jinhwan was already in relationships even during our trainee days. We could date if we wanted to, it’s just that I wanted t