It's been two years since I last updated this fanfiction, and I feel absolutely horrible for adandoming it. I've never forgotten it and at the time when I started it, I was really happy with it. I haven't read it since early 2016 and just thinking about reading it now, in all honestly makes me want to cringe. I know that my writing isn't good and when I first posted it, I had a plot in mind, but now, I don't even know where the story was meant to actually go. I'm so sorry. I don't know if I will be continuing this story anymore. Don't get me wrong, I want to continue it but the last two years have been difficult  (I've been struggling with depression, an eating disorder, dissociation, suicidal thoughts and self harm) and it all got too much for me to even update at all. I'm in a constant spiral of addiction, denial, recovery and relapse and I just want to give up most days and end it all. When I wrote this story, I was 13 and now I'm 16, there's a bit too much on my plate with practically everything. I'm in my last year of school right now and I've been thinking perhaps after I finish my exams, I may revamp the story entirely after they end in June. I don't like how the story is now, it's actually an embarrassment to me. I have improved greatly in my English from three years ago so if I were to continue the story, I would like to keep to the same sort of plot but make it better and less embarrassing. Fix the mistakes. Fix plot errors. Improve character development and so on. 

I've said all this because if there are still people following this story after two years of absolutely no updates what so ever, I wanted to know if anyone would actually wait 5-6 months for me to revamp everything. 

If you would actually like me to do that and are patient enough to wait, please let me know. 

Again, I'm sorry. Please forgive me x 

-Abottle0102