Today is Yunho's last concert before he enlists. And there was some oddly timed speculation at dinner about whether Yunho might be assigned to the 55th when he finishes his basic training. I could feel the stares from right across the room burning through my uniform, but really kids? I've been playing games like this far, far longer than you lot.

As if I'd let myself be seen to be rattled by a word or two…

So not happening.

As for Yunho being posted here? I think it's highly unlikely, seeing how much flak the army got a few years back for its celebrity units. We actually thought of enlisting back when we broke away from SM, but it just didn't feel real. It wouldn't feel real now if they put a bunch of us all together. And I'm coming to realise how important "real" is for me after all the crazy we've been living.

So no, every person at dinner could watch me as closely as they wanted and I'd not react. I've learned how to do this the hard way… and compared to what we had to do in the past, dinner was a cakewalk. On the outside.

Of course, none of them knew that I'd been reading stuff online earlier. Or that I was quietly sending vibes to Changmin. Making him go solo at SM Town seems unnecessarily cruel. He'll never begrudge Yunho time to promote his solo album or see his family before he enlists, but he's bound to hate standing on that stage all by himself. And that's just…