I rested my head on the foreign pillow and stared at the wall. I was able to stop scratching over the past week, but the thoughts still lingered. My mind was polluted with the doubt and selfish desire to rid myself from this world. I gripped on the sheet as I pulled it over my body.

How am I supposed to live through this pain?

How am I supposed to confront my thoughts

It’s as if someone is controlling me.

I want my freedom back.

I want to be Joonmyun. 

I hate this.

I am living in the body of Joonmyun, but my thoughts are of another being.

How can I live with so much self doubt?

How can I continue on like this?

“Joonmyun...?”

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