The hormonal imbalance might be the cause of all these feelings stirring in me, but my brain totally knocked them over.

"Jessica-sshi!" I called out.

As soon as she stopped walking and faced me, I looked back at Jaejoong.

Isn't this what you wanted? Now, it's easier to leave him. Isn't this what you've planned???

"How long- you... How long have you two been together?" my voice cold.

"Kyoung Mi-ya I can explain..." he stepped closer to me, but I stepped back.

"Answer my question." I growled.

"A month before we-"

"enough.  Does that mean she was first?"

He tried to come closer again. "answer me." I spoke.

He just nodded shakily.

I took a long deep breath then faced Jessica.

"I'm sorry Jessica-sshi. I wasn't aware of your relationship." I bowed.

As I stood straight, Jessica stared at me like I was out of my mind.

I then looked at Jaejoong, "I hope you're happy together." I blurted.

I left the room with a heavy heart  but no tears wanted to flow.

This is what I wanted, right? What I have planned? Why am I not satisfied?