Chapter 25

Change your living situation, Getting a new house or apartment isn't always that easy so another option is to change the layout of your pad. Acceptance.   Acceptance is the key and the main ingredient in successfully getting over someone.   This is the stage where you realize that you are going to be okay. It doesn’t mean that the pain has gone away completely; it just shows that you have it, under control now. You are ready to move on with your life after the breakup.   For months and years, I became Ero's lab rat— twice in a row. When The Ex broke up with me, it took me weeks (months to exact) before I was able to pull myself together. The breakup was too painful and ugly— it tore me apart.   I was too in love with him that it scares me— then it scares him as well. I guess the love I had for him was too much that it suffocates him or maybe it made him unhappy. It was just my guess. Then again, he has his own reasons that he can never tell me, other reasons that a girl cannot truly comprehend—and accepting the break up was the least thing I wanted to do back then.   However, time heals all wounds…  I'd managed to make the closure, but as we talk that time, I realized he'd already move on while we're still together. Indeed, the only thing that can heal a broken heart is time.   It wasn’t just the break up that tore me apart, nevertheless, everything that happened in the year of 2008. It made me hate life and detest it with so much hatred and disdain. It was the darkest days of my life—it had been in so much mess. One by one, all the people I love, left me. I slip into depression and if it weren’t for Jonghyun… I’m probably a goner.     Acceptance is the key to being able to start moving on.   I was trapped into this false belief— that I'm in love with Kim Jonghyun— and what happened yesterday had finally set me free.   When I first thought I was in love with Jonghyun and when he chose Shin Se Kyung over me, I thought my life ended. I thought I’m dying because it brought me intense pain. But when Choi Minho talked to me and when I finally understand what he was telling me, I realize he was right. This is what normal people should do after getting their heartbreak: they let go and they accept things.     Not stalk them and get revenge.   Thinking back, it was really funny. How could I ever do that? How could I think and act like that? I am worst than pathetic. I shake my head and laugh.   I take a deep breath and look around… What now?   The answer is right in front of me. “This is mess.” I say aloud that it broke the stillness of the room. Subsequently, I realized, I’m not sure whether it is the house or me that is in chaos.  Nonetheless, either way, we’re both a mess.   There is no mom, to tell me what I