❝my pride is stronger but my pain is always stronger❞

“bite the bullet, train with fortitude”

I’ve repeated them to myself so many times, I can recite them by heart. I have repeated them so many times, I can feel the words as I try not to reach for a knife, for a release. I repeated them, like a mantra, like a silent prayer, as I try my best not to burst open. but it never works.

my pride is strong, but my pain is always stronger