I woke up the next day holding my lips. I dreamt about Chen kissing me and pinning me to bed. Too extreme, my mind said. I know. I nodded. 

 I went to school happy but I didnt saw Jongdae. It’s unusual, it ia already 7:30 am but he’s still not here. The bell rang, there is still no sign of Chen. Our teacher entered our room, so I stared at the empty seat beside me.

"Ehem, ehem. Sorry to disturb everyone's classes. I just want to express my love for the girl who always melt my heart with her smile. The best thing I have right now. My prized possession that I don't want others to get."

Every one got up with their seats because someone said that there's someone holding a mic on the ground. Of course it is Chen. His voice was recognized by our class. My heart pound faster than before. I saw him standing on a mini-stage, holding a guitar, eyes searching for someone. When he met mine, he started singing.

♪"Seoro hamkkeil ttaemyeon nunbitman bwado ara ara ara (Oh oh oh oh)
Jibeuro doraomyeon mworago halji molla molla molla y-y-yeah
Ajigeun seotulleo naui modeun maldeuri ajigeun eoryeowo neoui geu munjadeuri
Sajeoneul pyeolchigo hanassik want to know want to know I don’t know oh oh.

I’m sending 1-4-3 geuljaron ajik jeondari an dwae woh oh oh
Sending 1-4-3 dansunhan sutjanoriga anya woh oh oh
I love you 1-4-3 neoneun 4-8-6 sending 1-4-3 neomu dareuji
Sending 1-4-3 ajik eoryeopji dansunhan sutjanoriga anya 1-4-3

I’m sending 1-4-3 geuljaron ajik jeondari an dwae woh oh oh
Sending 1-4-3 dansunhan sutjanoriga anya woh oh oh
I love you 1-4-3 neoneun 4-8-6 sending 1-4-3 neomu dareuji
Sending 1-4-3 ajik eoryeopji dansunhan sutjanoriga anya 1-4-3

I’m sending 1-4-3 geuljaron ajik jeondari an dwae woh oh oh
Sending 1-4-3 dansunhan sutjanoriga anya woh oh oh
I love you 1-4-3 neoneun 4-8-6 sending 1-4-3 neomu dareuji
Sending 1-4-3 ajik eoryeopji dansunhan sutjanoriga anya 1-4-3."♫

Chen stopped singing. He got out of the stage and held a bunch of flowers from the side of his mini stage and aimed to throw it to my direction. He is about to throw it when a girl hugged him from behind.

"Oh Chen-sshi! You don't have to do this! Aigoo it's embarassing!" The girl said. Wait, that's Liyin, the school's princess. The most beautiful girl in the campus. The one who likes Jongdae so much. And Jongdae's partner in some of the school's activites and parties. The "Perfect Couple". Right.

Jongdae looked surprise, but he also hugged Liyin, saying "Uh, Oh, yeah, just want to surprise you." 

He looked at me. I just turned away and ran towards the school's graden, far away from where Jongdae while chanting " Jongdae's an idiot. Jongdae's an idiot." like a mantra that'll make this fcking pain away. Tears are flowing, I can't help it. It's like I'm a human chaos. Everything that I am experiencing now is mind shattering as well as heart breaking. Why do I love Jongdae?! Why did I ended up as his toy? Why am I crying because of him?! Those questions ran on my mind while going to the graden.

"Hey! Wait up!" Someone shouted from behind. I stopped and looked at the person who called me.

"K-kai?" When I saw him, he spread his arms, like encouraging me to hug him.

"I can be your crying shoulder. You can cry on me, I still have extra shirts on my lockers." He said. That made me cry even more. Why didn't I love Kai in the first place? I ran to him and cried on his shoulder. He just pat my back and whispered "It's okay." He led me to sit on the grass while I continue crying all these hurt and sad feelings I have in my heart.

After an hour (I didn't notice that I've slept), I woke up on Kai's lap, and saw Kai looking at me intently while my hair. He didn't kiss me, but he just look at me, eyes full of love and sadness. 

"Jongdae came, I said you were sleeping so he walked away."

"Oh. Thankyou Kai. I'm sorry, I made a mess with you."

"It's okay. It's for you anyway. I'll do anything for you. Come, let's go. It's lunch already and I know you're hungry from crying."

He got up and patted his pants to remove some dirt. He offered his hands to me and I took it and did the same. We walked together to the canteen. I felt refreshed, like I removed some stone on my heart. But the hurt came back when I saw Jongdae and Liyin sitting on the middle table in the canteen. He saw me and followed me with his eyes. I see anger and sadness on his eyes. I looked away, sat on the table far away from them, and made Kai buy our food. 

I hate him. I super duper hate him.