I came to school early, bcause of two reasons; I don't want to be late and I always get a chance to hear Chen's singing voice whenever he sings alone. Yes he sings whenever he knew no one was there beside him. I knew this side of him, singing what his heart wants like he'll sing "She makes my world colorful and beautiful and fine~~" (I still don't know who is he pertaining to) or "My life is full of bulls but whenever I am with her she always makes me smileeeeeee~". I enjoy this sight of him, singing at the open window of our corridor and singing silly lines until students lurk around the halls to see him (fangirls) and go inside our classroom. He'll notice me, I'll look away, he'll sit beside me (unfortunately we're seatmates) and look at me as if I were a painting inside a museum that needs some strong judgement.

"You look ugly today shortie."

"I know and I don't mind."

"I really hate your face."

"I really hate your existence."

"I hate you're eyes are round and full."

"I hate your cheeks."

"I hate your hair. Your curls, Your black-toned hair."

"Then don't touch my hair. Better yet, don't look at me if you hate me that much."

"But I like making your day miserable."

"I know. And I hate you for that you assh*le."

"I love you too btch." And then I'll facepalm because he just said the word "love" and my face felt hot. You're blushing with a not-so-sweet comment of that fcking Kim Jongdae, my clever mind told me. We always do this every morning. He'll find things about me and start saying "I hate--" and he'll end it with "I love you too." 

My poor heart always aches when he do that.

I'm a masochist I know.

A fcking masochist.

WHY?

Because I love Jongdae so much... very very much.