[Show]

Supposing, it should have been one of the best days of my life. Seeing Rainie getting the best actress award which she deserves for it. But not getting the best actor award was saddening. I couldn't believe it. I lost to a kid, lost to a kid who acted for the first time.

 

Even though I wasn’t angry at the judges choice. I just felt sad for not able to get the award. And I felt even sadder when I knew Rainie cried for me when I didn't get the award. I made myself a promise if I won the best actor award. I would tell everyone that I love Rainie, I will want to be her boyfriend. I will invite her on stage so she be able to accept me and so we be able to kiss in front of all our fans there.

 

But I failed to and it just pains me. What pains me more was my beloved Selina, my ex-girlfriend got seriously injured in an accident. That hurts me more. Two girls hurts today, 23^rd October, what a bad day it is. Smiling to the media makes it even worse for me. Though when Rainie hugged me, some gloom were lifted off me. Kissing her was making me shy as I didn't know why she allowed me to kiss her.

 

I was fiddling with my phone while waiting for the driver to come pick me up so that I can go home for a rest. A rest is what I need now currently because I feel very drained now…..emotionally and mentally. Just then, Rainie walks forward and then takes a seat beside me. “Xiao Zhu, are we still going to our co-owned residence?” She asks softly. “Just a night….I know you are pretty exhausted…..it just a night….like last time.” She says, she wants to spend a night with me at the 3 floor terrace we co-own together. It was meant for both me and Rainie as well as our friends when we want to get together without press knowing.

 

Surprised and bemused by her request, I kept quiet for a bit and then gave a negative answer. “Na….I don’t think it a good idea for you to come to my house, last time was different, I was full of energy to talk to you for the whole night, but not now….I am really tired.” I declined, citing exhaustion.

 

“Come on Xiao Zhu…..I won’t bother you at most, at most I watch TV alone, you don’t have to entertain me.” She asks again and she shows her eyes, those dazzling eyes of hers which made me fell for her.

 

“Alright then.” I relents and then gets up with her. “Tell your manager about it so that he and Jiang Ge can make the necessary arrangement just in case we are caught by paparazzi.” I walks away from her.

 

As the car was moving, I was looking out at the windows, looking at the cars moving…..the people inside…..the lights around the city and the clouds. Looking back at Rainie, I saw that she dozed off slightly and I know she herself was tired too. Seeing that she was about to hit her head on the windows, I pulled her gently on my shoulder so that she could sleep better. I then looked at her and then sighs sadly. “Rainie, I love you, I really do, but maybe you deserve someone that isn’t a coward, someone that is brave enough to do what I can’t, having all the chances in the world to tell you but not using it.” I said it in my mind as I looked at her.

 

Soon, we reached the 3 floor terrace house and Rainie was still asleep on my shoulder and not having the heart to wake her up. I gave Xiao Shuang the keys to the house and told her to open the door so that I could carry her in.

 

I brought her to her bedroom and then places her down gently on the bed so that I wouldn’t wake her up. I then observed her. She was a really adorable girl when she sleeps and she is so beautiful and sweet.

 

Though she behaves more like a boy to me during those friendship bonding session we have, I love how real she is, she isn’t like most girls I met, who tries to act classy. That one of the reason I fell in love with her. I then touches her cheeks gently and then smiles. “Usually I always pinch those whenever we start quarrelling, but I actually love how you always fight against me, I find that you are so cute, so adorable and so lovable. If I say I love you, I want to be your boyfriend that can’t spend time with you as always, will you take me? Have all those sweet moments that a couple has at this house, and maybe marriage if we succeed in going past dating.” I said soft and then touches her lips softly. “It just a kiss, you won’t know it.” I inched closer to her lips to give her a soft peck.

 

As I moved away, her eyes opens, totally clear and she gets up. “Xiao Zhu, I heard everything you say.” She says softly as she got up. She wasn’t asleep at all, she must have heard everything.

 

Deny, deny it to the end and she won’t ask further. “What are you talking about Rainie, I was just looking at you, that all, I didn’t say anything.” I denied everything I said earlier.

 

“Are you sure, Luo Zhi Xiang, I dare you to swear here that you didn’t say those words, swear it to god that you didn’t say that you love me.” She challenged me as she walks forward to look onto my eyes.

 

She gave me no space at all as I retreats away from her, each step I took, she mimics and follows me forward and each step makes me afraid, afraid that I might say something wrong to her. “What, it was just….just….a joke….yeah, a joke at most, why do you care?” It hurts my heart to say that to her but I had to.

 

“No one would say that and says that it a joke.” She was sure what I said wasn’t a joke. “Alright, if what you said was a joke, then what I say now is going to be the truest words you would ever hear. I love you, Luo Zhi Xiang, I fell in love with you, ever since we became friends again, and during the ‘Hi My Sweetheart’ days, which we turned into best of friends and during the time we spent here…..it all translated to love, I fell in love with you madly. What would you do now? Will you accept me or will you just let me go and let our friendship end.” She took all space away from me and had her hands on the wall, giving me no way to get away.

 

I was defeated now and though I felt really happy that she loves me, though our love is not one sided, I can’t accept her, I can’t give her security, I am afraid that I might lose her, just like I lost Selina last time, I was really afraid. But I was afraid that someone would take her too but I hardened my heart. “No, I can’t accept you, sorry.” I pushed her away hard which sent her falling to the floor. Whenever she falls, I would pick her up, but I didn’t this time and I walked away.

 

Quickly, she wraps her arms around me and then hugs me. “Xiao Zhu, why are you being this, why can’t you go over the past, let go of it, I know your insecurities, it plagues me too, but I am willing to take a chance, give me a chance, give yourself a chance, give us both a chance that this would work out.” She says softly.

 

My heart softens totally but I hardened myself and then pushes her away to the floor once again. “I am not the right person for you, sorry.” I walked away though it hurts me, I felt so hurt when I pushed her to the floor.

 

She got up quickly and then hugs me from behind. “Why are you like that, why can’t you give it a chance. You are a coward, you are one, I was the one who initiated the reconciliation, and now I am the one asking again for love and you don’t want it.” She was right in saying that, she was right. “If I am brave enough to express my love for you, why aren’t you brave enough to try?”

 

Her words was like a wakeup call to me but I was afraid, very afraid of losing her and I shakes my head. “Sorry Rainie, sorry, it best you find someone else.” I pulled her hands away and then pushes her away and I quickly heads to my room to lock the door up quickly so that she wouldn’t come in.

 

She knocks onto the door repeatedly and I hears her cries. “Show, let me in, we have feelings for each other, we love each other, why can’t you be with me, Luo Zhi Xiang, open the door, if you don’t, I will leave this house and we are over, we aren’t friends anymore.” She cries out.

 

I refused to and the knocks were gone, no more door knocking and I know very well that I have lost my chance to be in a relationship again, be in love, I lost my chance now. “I got plenty of chances, a lot of it, why couldn’t I have the courage to act on it.” I hit myself repeatedly for the chances I gave up.

 

As I opens the door slightly, I walked towards Rainie room, hoping she would be inside. Looking into the room, I see Rainie hugging her legs and sobbing. My heart softens and I took a step but then held back but I decided to give it a chance. I walks in and then sits beside her. She looks up at me and my heart softens again and I closed my eyes and then hugs her. “Lin, sorry, I am really sorry, I shouldn’t have pushed you or reject you. I am late, will you still accept me?”

 

“You are late, but as late as you were, I still love you.” She returns the hug. “But you hurt me, you made me fall down 3 times.” She says softly.

 

I carried her up gently and then smiles. “I got some medicated cream in my room that will get the pain away.” I brought her to my bedroom where she applied pressure and then pulls me down to the bed. She then kisses me on the lips lightly.

 

“Xiao Zhu, I want to kiss you again.” She pulls me for a kiss but I quickly covered my hands on her lips.

 

“I want to be the one that initiates the kiss.” I said to her and then pulls her up to my lap. “I love you.” I pulled her for a short kiss on the lips. Her lips was soft and sweet and I deepened the kiss shortly.

 

The kiss ignites our love even further and my hands went beneath her shirt, touching her body over and over again. But she stops it and then giggles. “Wait first, let me get some protection done, or else we will be both in hot water.” She runs out of the room quickly. Soon, she comes back to the bed and then jumps onto me. “Piggy, shall we continue what we left off earlier?” She takes off her shirt seductively and then throws it aside.

 

I then kissed her lips deeply and the clothes we wore began to fly around the room like confetti.

 

 

[Rainie]

We made love for a while and I smiled and giggles as he kisses my neck softly. Every part of my body was kissed by him already and he seen everything as well but I didn’t mind it. “Xiao Zhu, your kisses are tickling me, stop it.” I said in a soft voice, I wanted him to stop for a bit.

 

He kisses my lips lightly and then stops. “Baby, I didn’t know you have a naughty side.” He cuddles with me. “Oh my…..it already 4 in the morning.” He exclaims as he looks at the time. “And we need a shower, you want it together or separately?” He carries me up gently.

 

“Of course together, it be fun to shower with you, help me soap my body, Xiao Zhu darling.” She says it cutely and then pecks on my cheeks.

 

We showered for a bit and we came out in a single bathrobe, we were cuddled together and we were giggling and kissing each other lips repeatedly before he covered me totally with the bathrobe. “I be wearing on my clothes, don’t look at me.” He pretended to be feminine, showing a girlish look at me.

 

I laughed out and then hits him on the bum. “You are so funny and cute sometime.” I walked to his wardrobe and then takes out a big sized shirt that he has inside to wear it on.

 

“Naughty you, trying to seduce me again.” He slaps my bum playfully, causing me to blush slightly and I immediately hit his bum back in response.

 

I wore on the shirt and then lies on his back. “Xiao Zhu, remember what we did earlier and also went through together.” I said softly as I yawned out. I felt so tired and sore now. was indeed really tiring.

 

“I know.” He carries me up gently and then places me down on the bed gently. “I will love you and treasure you as much as I can. I know I can’t guarantee you dating time together, but I promise to love and protect you from whatever I can, baby.” He professes his love for me.

 

I felt so happy and I kissed his lips many times. “Xiao Zhu, you are so sweet with your words.” I touches his face lightly. “I hope you don’t just love my body only.” I was joking with that.

 

“I love you for who you are. And to me, you are the iest woman and the prettiest.” He touches my thighs gently and then tightens his arms on my waist. “And I want you to buy those y lingerie so that you can wear it to sleep with me, wait, I can buy it for you.” He jokes about buying undergarments for me.

 

I hits him in response and then laughs out. “Naughty you, don’t even try or I won’t talk to you again.” I made a face in response but he shows a funny face that got me laughing out. “You know my laughing point, not fair.” I complained cutely, pouting my lips.

 

He pushes me down and then kissed my lips deeply and I gave in quickly. As we broke away, his hands was on my bosoms, caressing it gently. “It might be small, but it beautiful, just as beautiful you are.” He holds my chin and then kisses me.

 

I lost count of all the kisses he gave to me and I giggles before pulling him down to the bed. “Let me tell you some rules for sleeping together, you must hold me to sleep and you must let me lie on you, or else I will ignore you forever.” I told him the rules for sleeping together.

 

He shows a shocked look and he shakes his head. “No no no no, I don’t want, I go sleep in other rooms.” He gets up and then walks away.

 

I quickly jumped onto him from behind, wrapping my arms around his neck. “You aren’t getting rid of me.” I cuddled closer to him. “If you want to leave, you have to bring me along.” I bit his ear lightly. “You are mine.” I states.

 

He turns around and I immediately pushes him down to the bed. “Rainie, what are you trying to do? You trying to an innocent person?” He covers himself with his arms.

 

He was just so funny and cute and I couldn’t help but giggle. “Zhu, you are so cute. But stop goofing around, I am really tired.” I yawned out. I was really tired right now.

 

He stops his antics immediately and then hugs me. “Let sleep now my dear.” He turns off the lights and then pecks me on the lips. “Baby, I feel so happy, so happy to have you at my side, being able to hug you and kiss you at will.” He kisses me again, this time on the cheeks.

 

“Sleep now la, or else we are going to have panda eyes later.” I wanted him to sleep in as it was already very late.

 

He taps the side of his chest. “Come and lie here, dear.” He says softly to me.

 

I lied on the side of his chest and then smiles. “Goodnight Xiao Zhu.” I said softly to him and then felt my eyes closing by itself.

 

 

 

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Looking at Show now, I smiles and then snuggles closer on his back. He was just so warm to lie on, makes me so fuzzy. My stomach rumbles shortly and I gave him a peck on the cheeks before I went to freshen up.

 

Walking out of the bathroom, the clothes strewn on the floor reminds me of what I did. I gave myself to a man whom I know would love me, I am positive he would be with me as much as he can.

 

I went downstairs and then went to take a look at the fridge to see what there was inside as I wanted to whip up a meal for Show. There was eggs and it gave me an idea, egg flavoured fried rice, mine and Xiao Zhu favourite.

 

Soon I was cooking the fried rice and it smells really nice and I hope Xiao Zhu would love it. The first meal I be making for him as his girlfriend, I know he would love it. Just then, a pair of arms comes around my waist. “Hey Rainie.” He pecks me on the cheeks. “Wow, fried rice, egg flavoured, my favourite and it smells so nice. You are so sweet to me, you deserve another kiss.” He kissed my lips this time and then spanks my bum.

 

I blushed and my instant reaction was to push him away with my . “, get away from me before I use the stirrer to hit you.” I took it and then threatens to hit him with it.

 

He just blows a kiss at me before he helps take the plates out. “I would love it if you hit me with your lovable hands.” He was being cheeky with his words.

 

I couldn’t help but smile, he was being so funny, so infectious. I then filled the plate with the fried rice and he helps me take it out. I walked out behind him and then sits at the dining area with him. “Alright honey, let dig in now.” It was a new endearment for him.

 

As we finished eating, I was about to take the plates to wash, but he pulls me to his lap and then holds me. “Baby, your fried rice is so delicious, really nice, thank you baby Cheng Lin.” He addresses me as a baby. “Your face is full of sweat and your mouth is so oily!” He exclaims and then cleans the oil and the sweat off my face.

 

He was just so sweet to me, I felt so loved and spoiled. “Dear, stop pampering me or I be a spoilt girlfriend.” I hit him playfully.

 

He held on my hands and then pulled me for a forceful kiss. I didn’t attempt to fight off it and I gave in. It feels so sweet, the feeling of love, sweetness and passion. He breaks it off shortly and then smiles. “Lin Lin, you want to try it again?” He asks softly.

 

I gave my answer with a kiss and I places my hands on his neck so that I could deepen the kiss even further by pulling him. But I also pulled him down to the floor with me. We fell together and it inadvertently broke our kiss. But we didn’t hurt ourselves and we giggled together. “Xiao Zhu, are you hurt?” I asked, concerned that he would have hurt himself.

 

“No, I am fine.” He replies and then pulls me up to a sitting position. “Did you hurt yourself too?” He asks as he ruffles my hair slightly.

 

“I didn’t, I am perfectly okay.” I got up with him and we both smiles and went for the plates, deciding to wash them.

 

We were back at the bedroom soon and he hands me a towel. “You go take a wash now, I be bringing you home later, I wait for you downstairs.”

 

“Wait first Xiao Zhu.” I said seductively, I had plans for him and myself for a sweet and intimate wash in the tub together. “What the rush?” I said softly as I removes my shirt right in front of him. I threw the shirt aside and then drew circles on his chest. “Don’t you want a hot and intimate bath with me?” I blew air onto his ear to seduce him further.

 

He placed his hands on my bum and then pulls me forward. “Why not, when I have such a y, desirable, alluring and beautiful girlfriend.” He lifts me up. “Soft bum you have, my dear.” He teases me of my bum. “So are your bosoms, beautiful and natural, just like how natural and beautiful you look.” His compliments went from erse to sweet in a quick way.

 

As I was about to give a reply, he kissed my lips softly and then nibbles on my lower lip. I loved how he performed that kiss and I closed my eyes, letting him lead the way to the bathroom.

 

He was my lover and I didn’t know my first day with him would be so intimate or so sweet and memorable.

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Here this drabble first update, I won't write a long chapter about this, just writing it because want to experiment with it, try to comment please guys, it will really please me to see you guys commenting.