Taemin’s POV

Everything happened too fast like a nightmare. I hadn’t come to school for a few days, because I didn’t know what I should react if I met her. My feeling for her still stayed tune, nothing changed. However, I felt disappointed, because Sulli hid it from me. I knew everyone could make mistake, if she’d told me, I would understand. I wanted her to tell me directly, not by that way. I thought avoiding each other was not a good thing, I couldn’t keep skipping class to not see her.

I came to school but didn’t expect to meet her. I needed more time to make up my mind. I went into class, sat at my desk silently, felt nervous if our gazes across to each other. I glanced over my watch, and realized it’s almost to 1^st section, but Sulli didn’t show up. I didn’t know what I was thinking about, I wanted to see her, yet not want to.

-          Ahem – my homeroom teacher entered and cleared his throat – Well, I have something to announce

-          What’s it? – my classmates screamed

-          Because of some personal issue, Miss Choi Sulli has transferred her study to USA. From now on, she will stop studying here – he said

I couldn’t believe in what he told me. She had transferred, but she didn’t tell me. My heart almost stopped beating as hearing she had left for USA. Why was it so sudden? Because of that incident?

-          What? When will she departure? – I shouted at him in front of my classmates

-          I heard that this morning – he replied

“No, Sulli, please stop kidding me” I thought, I hurried run out of my class, although my homeroom teacher called my name “Lee Taemin, where are you going? We’re still in class” I was like crazy guy, running with my fastest speed, until I bumped at someone. I fell down, and looked above. It’s Minho hyung.

-          Why are you so hurry? – Minho asked

-          Sulli, she’s leaving now. I need to see her – I was about to run, but Minho hyung gripped my wrist, held me back

-          I know it – he replied with clam voice

-          What? You know she’s leaving, and you don’t hold her back. What kind of boyfriend are you? – Taemin lost my temper and shouted at him

-          I can’t, because it’s her decision – Minho hyung said

-          Are you nut? I don’t want to waste my time for talking with you. I need to stop her – I said

-          She left in this early morning. I think her flight had departure already – he said and looked at his watch

-          How can you be so calm like this? – I frustrated and wrapped his collar shirt

-          She left because of you. – he pushed me away, that made me fell down on the ground

-          Why? Because of me? – I looked at him confusingly

-          Because you never trust her. Have you ever asked her about that incident? You’ve not ever, right? Do you really know the true story behind everything? All you do to her, is turning your back to her. – he shouted at me angrily

I was speechless with his words. That’s right, Sulli never told me about that. And I never asked her.

-          You are not deserved to be the one whom she loved most. You are not worth to her love – he said and started going away

-          Tell me, please tell me – I grabbed his shoulder

-          Follow me, if you want to know – he said

We went to the school back yard, no one was around here, except two of us. We stood under the big tree.

-          We haven’t dated to each other, even just once – Minho hyung said

-          Then why did she told me she dated with me – I asked

-          She begged me to be her fake boyfriend, it’s just because of you. Suzy likes you, but at that time Sulli and you was dating. Suzy started to discover about Sulli’s past. She used it to threaten Sulli to break up with you. – he said

-          Suzy? How could she do that? – I felt angry as knowing Suzy was the one behind everything

-          Sulli was pregnant when she was at junior high school. But it’s not like what you heard from Suzy. She got – he sighed

-          Got ? Who did it to her? – I shouted at Minho hyung

-          Calm down. I don’t know either.  Then she realized she got a baby after a few months. So she stopped going to school for a while, since that everyone made up a rumor about her. They called her , who slept around with boys in school. It really hurt her. Not long time later, she tripped and lost her baby. After that, she back to school and everyone started looking at her with the disgusting eyes. They even bullied her. That’s why she quit her school, and transferred to Seoul with the hope that no one could find out her terrible past. – he told me

-          Why did she not tell me? If she did, I would believe her, and never leave her – I kicked the tree angrily

-          Because she loves you too much. She’s afraid that you will treat her as others did. Look at what you did in that day. It proved her right. He did turn your back to her. You make her believe no one really was trustful. That’s why Sulli left here. She wanted to forget about everything, especially you. – he said

-          I know I was wrong. Tell me how I can get her back. – I wrapped his shoulders, and shook them

-          I don’t know. Maybe, just wait until her wound will be healed completely. Until she get brave to love you again. That’s what I wanted to tell you long time ago. From now, you must think how you can do to get her back – Minho hyung finished his words, and went away

Why was I so stupid enough to lose her trust? “Sulli, please give me one more chance” I really lost her forever. NO, I didn’t want to accept that fact. I needed to ask her mom to get her address in USA. Then I would go there right away.

I ran to her house, breathed hard while keep pressing her bell. But no one came out, maybe her mom hadn’t back home from work. But I was determined to wait for her mom coming back. I stood in front of her house until almost night. Finally, Mrs. Choi back. I ran to her, while she’s staring at me uncomfortably.

-          Hi, Mrs. Choi. I’m Lee … - I was about to finish my words, but she cut me off

-          Lee Taemin, right? I know you, Sulli’s friend – she said

-          Yes, … I’m here to ask you about Sulli’s address in USA. Can you tell me, please? – I said

-          Sorry, I can’t tell you. I know Sulli and you were in relationship, but I don’t know what you have done to her. The only thing I know that my daughter really got hurt from her. So, I don’t think she wants to see you again, and I don’t want her to. –she said coldly

-          I know I was wrong. That’s why I want to apologize her. I really love Sulli. I don’t want to lose her -  I begged her

-          But I did. Sulli never open up her heart to anyone since that incident, but she did with you. You should treasure her a lot, but you didn’t. Now you feel regret, and want to take her back. Do you think it’s too late? – Mrs. Choi replied

-          Please, help me, Mrs. Choi. I swear I never let her go again – I begged her

-          Sorry. I can’t help you. It’s too late. I still have a lot of things to do. Good-bye – Mrs. Choi went into her house and locked the house.

I felt like I really lost the last hope to have Sulli back. My eyes was getting hurt, my vision was getting blur. I couldn’t hold my tears back. I knew I was crying right now. I lost her, indeed. I wished there could be a time machine, then I would go back to the past, and correct my mistake.

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Sorry for not update for a while. I was too busy with my school work. Now I'm back to bring you more updates. I don't think this is a good update, because I wanted to make Taemin suffer more for his mistake. But it fails. maybe next update, I will try more.