Nobody’s POV

Minho dragged Sulli to somewhere for waiting for the rain stop. He brought a warm drink. Minho sat next to Sulli, who’s staying silently. She didn’t speak any words since that. He took out his handkerchief, and helped her wipe out her wet face.

-          Sorry, oppa. I shouldn’t get you into this thing – Sulli said

-          It’s okay. But can you tell me what’s happen to you guys? Why did you do that to him? It’s so cruel – Minho said

-          I know I owe him a lot. But I have no choice. It’s all my fault – Sulli said while crying

-          You still love him, right? I can see it in your eyes – Minho said

Sulli didn’t reply, just nodded

-          Then why? – Minho said

-          Because I’m not worthy to him. I’m a dirty girl – Sulli shook her head

-          I don’t know what you mean – Minho looked at her confusingly

-          I have a terrible past. I got in my old school. I even was pregnant. – Sulli looked up and told Minho

Minho got shock as hearing what Sulli told him. He never knew she had such a terrible past. That’s why her eyes always show something depressing.

-          I’m sorry, I … - Minho hesitated

-          It’s okay, oppa. No need to say sorry. I got by a boy who did confess to me. But I rejected him, because he’s violent one. Everybody’s scared of him. Me either. Until this thing still haunted me. He beat me, slapped me, me, … no one come for me … - Sulli shivering while telling her story

-          What’s about him? Did you tell the police? – Minho asked

-          No, I was scared that this thing would be gossip in my school. So I decided to keep it secret. Not long time later, I found I got pregnancy. My stomach got bigger everybody, and everyone started noticing it. I knew I couldn’t hide it anymore, so I told my mom. Mom cried a lot because she didn’t know what I had to get through. The pain, the shame alone. But I didn’t want to get rid of the baby. I felt sorry for him. So I begged mom let me keep him. – Sulli said

-          Where’s … your baby? – Minho said

-          D… Dead… I lost my baby in the 3^rd month. I fell from the stair and lost my baby – Sulli said while touching her stomach

-          Sorry … - Minho mumbled

-          He’s used to be here – Sulli said and placed her hand on her stomach – I felt so helpless. I couldn’t protect myself, then my baby. I thought there’s no reason for myself living in this life. It’s so painful to me. So, I did suicide – Sulli said

Minho got shock again, glanced his eyes over her wrist and saw some scars.

-          It’s ugly, isn’t it? – Sulli forced a smile to him

-          Sulli … - Minho urged

-          But I’m alive, mom saved me. She blamed everything on herself, and cried a lot. She even told me if I suicide again, she’ll come with me. I realized I did something really stupid. If I died, what’s with my mom? She’ll live alone forever, cause I’m her only family. Since that, I promised I never do it again. We moved to here, and start a new live without anyone knowing about my past. – Sulli said

-          That’s why you said you’re not worthy to Taemin – Minho asked

Sulli nodded her head

-          Don’t be silly. You did nothing wrong. You’re not deserved that. Tell him, if Taemin loves you, he’ll let it go. – Minho encouraged Sulli

-          No, I can’t. I’m so scared – Sulli shook her head non-stop

-          Then tell him for you. I’ll explain it. If he doesn’t, I’ll beat him until he get it – Minho said

-          Please, please don’t tell me. I rather to being hate by him than telling him my shameful past. Please, let me be selfish this time. I’m not good for him. I’m just a in everyone’s eyes. I beg you – Sulli hold Minho hand’s tightly, begging him

-          But do you want to hold it all? It’ll hurt you and Taemin – Minho said

-          Taemin will forget me someday, I’m afraid he’ll look at me with disgusting eyes. – Sulli kneed down for begging Minho

-          Sulli … don’t do it… I promise not to tell him – Minho quickly helped her up

-          Taemin can hate me, can treat me bad, but please don’t look at me with those eyes. – Sulli said

-          Okay. It will be fine. I take you home, you look exhausted – Minho said

Sulli’s POV

Minho oppa escorted me home. I thanked him for taking me home today. I rushed to my room, and locked it. I need to be alone. My heart’s so aching as recalling his heart-broken face. The way he looked at me and Minho oppa. The way he slapped me, the way he cared for my wound. Everything’s still in my mind. I still wonder if Taemin’s fine. He looked so heart-broken earlier. Breaking up seems to be hurt much more I imagined. All our happy memory kept replaying in my mind. Our first met, our first touch, our first kiss. I missed him so much. I kept thinking and fell asleep.

Next day, I went to school as usual. I was afraid of facing him, I’m afraid I couldn’t hold my tears back. As what I wished, I didn’t meet him. Taemin’s absent from today. And many the following days he didn’t show up. I was very worried what’s happened with him. Did he get sick because of standing under the rain? I couldn’t concentrate on nothing but thinking about him

It’s the fifth day he didn’t go to school. I couldn’t wait for anymore, I wanted to see him, and I wanted to know if he’s alright. That afternoon, I went to his house. I stood in front of his house in a long time, but I had no brave to press the bell. Until I saw someone coming behind me, and patted my shoulder

-          Um … hi … can I help you? I’m this house’s owner – a woman said

-          Um … um … nothing … I … I – I hesitated

-          Are you Taemin’s friend? I saw your uniform in the same school with him – she said

-          Um … yes… Taemin was absent from … many days… - I said

-          He got a serious bad sick. A few days ago, he got home with his wet body. He didn’t dry him up, didn’t do anything, just sat silently in his room … I don’t know what’s wrong with him – that woman sighed

-          He did? – I felt my heart aching non-stop.

Why did he must do it to himself? Why did he must hurt himself? Is it worth? Am I worth to him for doing this?

-          He get better today, he may go to school tomorrow. Do you want to meet him? – she said

-          No no no… it’s good to hear he’s better … I’m leaving now… Good bye Mrs. Lee – I bowed her and ran off

Nobody’s POV

After Sulli running off, Mrs. Lee went inside the house. She rushed to Taemin’s room to check if he’s okay today. She saw Taemin sitting silently on his bead with his arms wrapping around his legs.

-          Are you better, Minnie? What do you want me to cook for you tonight? Porridge?

He still kept quiet. No reply

-          Ah … I’ve just met a girl … she seems to be your classmate – Mrs. Lee said

-          Classmate? A girl? – Taemin urged

-          Uh huh … she’s weird. She stood in front of our house in a long time but she didn’t press the bell. She asked how you are. Then I asked her come in, but she rejected and ran off. What a weird girl – Mrs. Lee shrugged

-          Where is she now? – Taemin shouted which made his mom startled

-          Just ran off a few seconds ago – she replied

Immediately, Taemin ran out of his room, rushed downstairs, ran out of his house without even wearing a pair of slippers. He looked around but saw no one. The road was empty. Mrs. Lee ran after him

-          What’s wrong, Minnie? – she asked

-          The girl … how does she look? – Taemin asked

-          A pretty girl … with a long brownish hair … pale skin … and her eyes are really  red and swollen – she descript

-           Sul … Sulli? It’s definitely her … Arg… - Taemin got angry and punched his fist into the wall that made his hand bleeding

-          Minnie … are you crazy? … your hand’s bleeding … come in now … and I’ll treat it – Mrs. Lee dragged Taemin into he house

Taemin knew it’s definitely Sulli. He wondered if she left him, why she still cared for him. Why did she make him suffer too much? Why did she make his heart aching as hearing her name?

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