Ren sitting in a bus on his way to the psychologist.

What shall I do? He thinks, I want to talk about all the hardest things, but where should I start? I have to tell her about my problems.

Suddenly Ren hears someone whisper behind him and Ren looks over his left shoulder to see who whispers. There are three boys who talk together about something and pointing at him. Ren turns his head and looks out the window.

I wonder what those idiots want? He thinks, they probably just laugh a bit of me, I have deserved it and after all, mom told me that I looked like a girl again and I do, I know it.

Ren becomes frightened when he feels a hand on his shoulder. He looks up and one of the boys who have whispered about him is standing next to him. "Hey, can I sit here?" he ask, Ren lifts an eyebrow "Yeah" He answer confused.
The boy sits and looks at Ren as if he has never seen anything more beautiful in his whole life. "My name is Daewoong" the boy says "What's your name?" Ren glaring at the boy, but the boy doesn’t say anything, just smiling. "My name is Minki" Ren respond and the boy smiling with a loving smile. Ren looks behind him and sees the other two boys smile and laugh.

They seem a little bit jealous, Ren thinking, but why? Daewoong takes Ren's hand and stares into his eyes. Ren lifts an eyebrow, he doesn’t think that Daewoong is ugly, but he isn’t his type, so he takes his hand away again.

"I'm sorry" Daewoong says "Do you have a boyfriend?" He asks, Ren staring confused at him. "Uh…No" He answer and Daewoong smiling all over his face. "I was hoping not" Daewoong says and move a little closer to Ren.

"I have never met such a beautiful girl before, I know that you and I, we fit together, I can feel it" Ren makes big eyes "What?" He asks with a high voice "Sir, excuse me, but..." He is interrupted by Daewoong. "You don’t have to say anything, I will look after you and protect you, I promise" He is interrupted by Ren's hand on his mouth. "It's sweet of you Daewoong, but I'm a boy" Ren said, removing his hand from Daewoong’s mouth.

Daewoong sitting with open mouth and is completely dumb "OH, sorry, that... I… I didn’t know" Daewoong tribes and trying to recover from the shock. Ren smile "Don’t worry, you couldn’t know" Ren says and sits right on the seat again.

You are so stupid Minki, Ren thinking, I look like a girl, it’s so embarrassing. Daewoong apologize one last time and walks to the other boys. Ren knows that he wouldn’t tell anyone about his accident.

Ren looks up at the router. Just in time, he thinks and presses the button. He smiles to Daewoong which is quite red in the face of embarrassment before he walks out of the bus and toward the large building, which he was about two weeks earlier.

Ren opens the door to a psychologist department and walks to the checkout. This is the same woman who sat there, the last time he was there. "Hey," Ren said, and the woman looks up, "Oh, hey" she says, "Choi Minki, I have an appointment here" Ren says and woman looking at computer "Yes, just go into the waiting room" she says, pointing to a door, Ren nods and goes inside.

He sits down on a pillow and take a fashion magazine. He soon discovers that there are people who look to him and he put the magazine down.

What am I doing? Ren thinking, I'm looking in a ing fashion magazine, what am I doing?

He’s ashamed and hears his name being called. Ren stand up from the chair and see Boa stand and smile kindly to him. "Hello Minki" she says as he walks over to her "It’s nice you could come" Ren nods politely "Thank you for letting me come" She smiles and shows him into the red room. He sits on a sofa and Boa sits down in the chair almost directly opposite.

"Okay" Boa says "Minki you were here a few weeks ago and now you're here again. You're here because you're gay and you want to change, am I right?" Ren nods, Boa smiles and continues "Okay, I'll put you out for a test today and you must do it as good as you can" Ren looking down on the ground.

I must do it, he thinks, I must. “I want to do my best” Ren answer and Boa looks proud at him "I have taken a male and female model with me today, and it is your job to tell me what you like about the male body and not the female body” Ren nods politely again and didn’t say so much. "But these 2 people have only underwear on" Boa says, waiting for his response "It's okay" Ren answer.

She nods and walks over to a curtain and pulls it to the side. Behind the curtain there stand a very beautiful black-haired woman and a very large muscular man.

Ren can feel the pulse increase just by looking at him, but he forces his feelings to relax. "Tell me what you think" Boa says and looks at Ren and then on them. "Ummm..." Ren says and try to look cool "I think that the man seems more attractive, because the muscles are bigger and seems like one who can care for someone" Ren says, the man glanced at Ren as if to say, 'No way, you’re clammy' Ren look quickly at Boa to forget his eyes

"Now try to turn it around, so it’s the woman you see as something attractive" Ren nods. "Ummm, I think the woman has nice " he says, looking at Boa to see if it's okay what he answer, but she just nod. "And she has great legs, hair and eyes" Ren says and Boa smiling. "It fine" She said and Ren nodsa he always do to show respect.

He knows what he said about the woman wasn’t right.

Boa-made signs to the man and the woman that they had to go out the door into another room and they did. She sits down on the chair, take a piece of paper and pencil.

"What do you think?" She asks. "I think it's fine" Ren answer and Boa look at him as to tell him, it’s not what I meant so Ren is trying with a new answer. "I liked the man, but the woman is probably ´have more things she can give me then the man can" Boa nods "That's right Minki" she says proud "You have done well, you need more lessons, right?" Boa ask and Ren biting his lip.

I must do it, whatever it takes, he thinks.

"Yes" he says quietly "Thank you"

Boa write it down on a piece of paper and give it to Ren. He looks at the paper, there stand: times and date of the next lesson. "Thank you" he says, getting up from the chair. Boa walks over to the door and opens it, she gives Ren her hand "Then you must continue good day Minki" She says happy and Ren bowing politely "Thank you Ms. Boa" he says politely and walks out of the building.

I want to do it, for my parents' sake.