A past

A precious memory

A touch to my heart

A cut to my heart

I love to love you

I love how you love me

I love to care for you

I love the care you give me

A moment in the past with her:

"What do you mean, you'll be going?" she whispered, concern etched on her face, while she was looking at the flashed face of Jae Joong.

"We will be performing, I need to go. Everything is already prepared and set," he explained.

"But Honey, you're sick, you have a fever. Can they not perform without you?" she asked him, concerned.

"Sweetheart, It is not the same, and I promised I'd be there, people expect me to be there. I promise, okay? I promise, I will rest most of the time," he tried to explain some more.

"That is not enough. I know you, you will be all out performing, then afterwards . . what . . probably collapse . . or be dehydrated . . I know you, Jae Joong, you don't do things halfheartedly," she said frowning at him, "I'm coming with you," she decided, determination etched on her face.

"Sweetheart, you don't have to come, and I'd be busy, I can't look after you. There will be many people there, and the staff alone will be great in number. Then the fans," he tried to reason with her.

"Add me as one of your personal staff, I'm coming to look after you, you buffoon, not the other way around. I'm coming, whether you like it or not. So, make it happen. It is better, that I'm part of the official staff, so people will not wonder about us, and I can look after you. And I can come near you anytime, and enter your room, too. If I can't go, I'm not going to let you go. So, what do you say?" she was staring at him, with a raised eyebrow, and arms crossed in front of her.

"You . . are not going to let me go?" he asked, amused.

"You better believe it, baster!" she said, so sure of herself.

"Make it happen, call whoever you need to call, I am going to the kitchen, and cook you some porridge. I expect, Jae Joong, that you will do it. I will not compromise. Then after you have eaten, I'm going home to pack some clothes," she turned and went to the kitchen

Smiling, Jae Joong reached for his phone, "hmmmmmm, I don't know if I should be happy I'm sick. hahahahahaha" dialed and started talking.

A memory returning

A memory of you and me

A memory of time together

A memory of us together

"Sir, your water," she said to Jae Joong, and offered a bottled water.  

"Thank you," he said to her.

"A towel."

"Thank you."

Noticing that no one was near, he whispered to her, "Please, you don't have to do this."

She whispered back, "shut up, buffoon. I am here and I'm staying. Now, drink."

He opened the bottled water and drank some water, and then closed it  after drinking, then handed it back to her. He wiped his forehead and neck. In an ordinary voice, that could be heard by anyone who might walk by, he said, "Could you wipe my back, please?" She took the towel and wiped his back.

There were people all around them, staff, crew, photographers, reporters, and even a few fans, who had special passes.  They pretended that she was part of his personal  staff.  That was why, nobody paid any attention to her. She can come near him, and give him water, towel or whatever he might need.

Checking for his place and dance steps, he was busy preparing for the performance, and she was there all the time, watched him, and looked after him. Held his bottled water and towel, for one. Afterwards, he was having his make-up done, and his hair was next to be done, his wardrobe was already ready.

When, he finished with all his preparations, she came closer and offered him, his medicine, "Here, drink this," and opened the bottled water and offered it to him. He took the medicine, all the while looking at her, and placed it in his mouth, and then took the bottled water to drink the medicine. Then turned his look somewhere else,  returned the water to her. She closed the bottled water.

Jae Joong came close to her,without being obvious and without looking at her, and whispered in a small voice, "Thanks, love,"  then walked on towards his group members, leaving her, standing holding his water, and looking at his back. She turned and went to sit in a corner, and took out her bag and looked for a book, she found her book and got comfortable and started reading.

A memory of you

A memory of your arms

A memory of your kiss

A memory of you

"I have a splitting headache, and I am so cold,"' he whispered. They were in the backstage, and she was beside him, already carrying her bag.

"Are we not going yet? Jae Joong, you need your rest. I don't  want you getting any worse," she spoke up to him.

Yoochun was beside them, and he looked at him, "Jae Joong? Are you alright?" Yoochun asked, looking at him, touched his forehead and neck. "Hey boy, your fever is still high, you better rest after this." Yoochun turned to speak with his other members, informing them about Jae Joong.  He whispered to them, "Hey guys, his fever is still high."

Yunho came close to them, "A few more minutes, I hate to do this to you, I'd let you go, if it was up to me. I'll go talk to our manager," he turned and walked away. The other members came closer too, looking concerned about Jae Joong’s condition.

"We should be through, why are we waiting here? Jae Joong needs to rest," Junsu spoke, concern written all over his face.

"Jae Joong, are you alright?" Changmin asked, looking at him, and touched his forehead, "We should go, but are we driving all the way home? What with Jae Joong like this?"

"We did not make any accommodations, we planned to come and drive back after the show," Junsu answered. "What do we do, the place is packed, I think all  hotels or places for rent nearby are taken," Junsu musing it over.

"Hey guys, I'm okay. I’d rather go home, anyway. I will feel better, if I'm at my place," Jae Joong spoke.

"Are you sure?" Junsu asked.

"Ye, I'm sure," he answered. He looked at her, and took her hand for a second, then let it go. He hugged himself, trying to get warm. The other members, moved to be  around him, and she moved on the side,  hands were on his arms, back and waist. "Why is it so cold, all of a sudden," he whispered, to nobody in particular.

Yunho came back, "We are out of here as soon as we take our bows, I informed our manager." He came close to Jae Joong, "Are you alright?"  he held his arm. "A few more minutes, one last song, and we are out of here."

Jae Joong nodded his head, "I'm okay."

Yunho turned his head towards the stage, "Why are they taking so long," he moved to the side, and had a serious face on him.

And in a few minutes, it was their turn on the stage. the fans were screaming out for them. They went up to the stage, the other members were concerned with Jae Joong, assisted him to the stage. They sang their last song, to the screaming voices of their fans.  And, then after singing, took their last bows, and the fans were clapping and screaming. They moved to get out of the stage, they assisted Jae Joong, looking after him. Jae Joong had his arm on the waist of Yoochun,  and he and Yunho had their arms around Jae Joong.

On the backsrage, "Thanks, Yoochun and Yunho, I did not think, I could have walked off the stage alone. I am a little dizzy, and this headache is killing me."

"Let's get you out of here. Where is your van and driver?"  Yunho asked.

"I'll call his driver to get ready," Yoochun took out his cell phone to call the driver.

"Is he alright?" Junsu asked, and Changmin was looking at Jae Joong. She came close, and looking concerned, and looked at Jae Joong.

"The driver said, he will have the van out in the back entrance. Let's take him there," Yoochun said. They all walked towards the back entrance to get to the van. Changmin and Yunho assisted Jae Joong, the other members followed.  She was behind them. Bodyguards and staff members followed them, looking concerned, too. They saw the van, as they got to the front, and they walked toward it.

Junsu walked ahead and opened the door, Jae Joong spoke, "Thanks guys, I'll go ahead of you."

Yoochun, "Take care, get well."

Jae Joong was looking behind the guys and whispered, "Where is she?"

"I am here," she step through the guys.

"We are going guys," he said to them.

"Take care of him," Yunho said to her.

"Don't worry, I will. Thank you," bowed her head to them.  She stepped on the van and sat, and Jae Joong followed and sat beside her.

"Bye, bye," Jae Joong said to them.

"I'll call you, later," Yoochun said.

"Ye, I'll call."

"Ye, I'll call. too."

“Ye, me, too."

"Bye, thanks guys, I love you, all!" Jae Joong  waved and said before closing the door. The other members, waved goodbye, too, "Goodbye, Goodbye," the staff and other people waved goodbye, too, "Goodbye," the van started moving.

In the van, Jae Joong reached for her hand, and she squeezed his hand. He looked at her, "Sorry, sorry for all that."
"I'm here, and I choose to be here.  Wait, I have a blanket," she let go of his hand to get a blanket, and found a blanket she had packed and placed it, and arranged it on him.

"You should drink, your medicine," she looked in her bag for his medicine, and looked for a bottled water, too. And, when she found both, she prepared to give him his medicine. Held the medicine, and then opened the bottle for him, "Now, drink this," Jae Joong took the medicine from her and placed it in his mouth, and  then took the bottle and drank the medicine; then gave the bottle back to her. She closed the bottle and placed it back in her bag.

She inclined his chair, and looked for a pillow for him to use, and then arranged the pillow she found, behind his head. He closed his eyes, but reached out for her hand, and she took his hand and held it with her own, "Go to sleep," she said to him.

"I am glad you are here."

She squeezed his hand, and he squeezed back. He held her hand and had it on top of his stomach, while he went to sleep. She kissed his forehead, and touched his hair, touched his face, touched his forehead, touched his neck, and touched his cheek, and then kissed it. "Go and sleep," she whispered. She straightened herself in her seat, and looked at him, while he slept. And in a little while, she felt sleepy herself. She inclined her body closer to him and had her other arm draped around him, got her head closer to his head, kissed his cheek, and went to sleep.

Jae Joong felt her kiss, but was drowsy, and went back to sleep.

When they reached Jae Joong's house: