I couldn't sleep. First I would think about Shi Won. Then I thought about her parents. Would I be happy being in a marriage like theirs? 

Then I thought about Joon Hee. The kiss had been so brief--and one sided--that I wasn't even sure how it felt. 

I managed to drag myself to work in the morning, but couldn't stop myself from yawning every five minutes. 

As I ate lunch in my office, I realized I was avoiding both my brother and Shi Won. I probably regretted telling him that I wasn't going to back off. Maybe he and Shi Won were right for each other. She never treated him like she treated me. She was down right sweet to him. She treated him like Joon Hee treated me. 

Now that was a shocking thought. An epiphany. I didn't want a relationship like Shi Won's parents'. I wanted someone to treat me like Joon Hee treated me--like Shi Won treated Tae Woong. 

There's one question answered. Now, will Shi Won be able to treat me like that? 

--Want to have lunch with me today?-- I texted her.

--Only if you're buying me some meat.-- Was her answer. I sighed.

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Nothing much happened for the next two weeks. I avoided everyone--Shi Won, Joon Hee, and Tae Woong. I was shameless. I wanted to blame Joon Hee. This was his fault. I couldn't figure out his rejection. I couldn't figure out what I was going to do about Shi Won. How the hell was I gonna face my brother now that I was pretty sure I didn't like Shi Won the way I thought I did. I was going to lose it!!!

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Shi Won showed up at my apartment one night. Her mom had sent some food for me. After I put the food away, I found her in the living room looking at the picture of Joon Hee and me. 

"When's the last time you talked to him?" She asked me as I stepped into the room.

"I dunno. A couple weeks, I guess." I shrugged and acted like it wasn't important to me.

She looked at me, her eyebrow raised. "You know we tell each other everything, right?"

I wasn't sure if I went deathly pale or blushed tomato red. I froze. I couldn't even breathe. 

"Why did you kiss him?" She asked, not angry. I was scared.

"I...uhm...I just..."

"Do you like him?" 

"...I...No! He's a guy!"

"And you just go around kissing guys you don't like." She scoffed and rolled her eyes. She reached out and thumped my forehead sharply.

"Ow!" I rubbed my sore head.

"You're such an idiot. You like him."

"No! He's my best friend--I mean, other than you."

"Exactly." Her arms were crossed as she continued to look at me as if I were too stupid to live. "You got confused about which one of us was your best friend and which one of us you wanted to date."

"No!" No, no nooo! I'm not the idiot--she is!! No WAY was that true! "I want to marry you!"

She laughed at me. "Moron. Call Joon Hee. I am so NOT marrying you. You're in love with someone else." She patted my shoulder and left. 

I felt like someone had just shot me in the gut. Shock. I was in shock. I slumped against the wall and slid to the floor as my legs gave out. 

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