This chapter starts in episode 15. I apologize. I made a big error but realized it too late. Last chapter includes some of the same things as this chapter--but I included more detail here. 

I don't get what Shi Won's issue is. I introduced myself as her boyfriend and she acted like she didn't want her coworkers to know. Is she ashamed of me? Joon Hee would never be ashamed of me. Well...maybe sometimes. He was never afraid to tell me I was being an idiot, when I actually was being an idiot. But he'd never pull my hair or slap me around like feisty Shi Won does. Maybe I like my girls feisty? Would I like a feisty Joon Hee? No. Absolutely no. What a terrifying thought.

I had done Shi Won a favor by giving a lecture to the students. I thought for sure that would get me somewhere with her! But when we got back to her place, she put up that wall again.

"Where do you think you're going?" She demanded.

"I'm already here, so I thought we could have a cup of coffee." Good one, Yoon Jae!

"No way. You can't come."

"Hey what...did I say anything?" Denial! Denial! "You're over thinking it! How come I can't even get a cup of coffee with you?" Brilliant, turn it around on her!

"You always use a Busan accent when you think you're in trouble." She laughed at me. "Do you think I'm that stupid? You are so sneaky."

Not sneaky enough! "What? Sneaky? I just wanted some coffee. I'm not going to do anything." I wonder if Joon Hee would put up this much of a fight? What would I do if he didn't?! I don't know what to do with a guy. I wonder if Hak Chan could get me some of that . Scary thought.

"How can I believe you, Mr Yoon? Just go to bed.Don't try any of your petty tricks." She snapped at me and flicked my forehead. So rude.

"Fine." I sighed. "You saw thru me. Then, kiss me instead."

A hug. A hug is what I got. Not that I don't like hugs from Shi Won--of course I do! But a kiss is so much better.

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When I got home, Joon Hee was busy putting his clothes into boxes.

"Are you already packing? Didn't you say you're moving this weekend?" Why did his hurry make me sad?

"I'm on duty tomorrow, so I might not be able to come home. I had some time, so I wanted to pack in advance. I don't have that much to pack anyway."

I sat next to him on the floor with a big sigh. "I'm going to be lonely without you. I've never lived alone."

"It'll be better if you live alone now." What did he know?! I was going to be so lonely in an empty apartment. "Wouldn't it be better to be alone if Shi Won will be visiting sometimes?" If he loved me, why was he trying to push me to Shi Won? Why was he running away? Was being in love with me that bad?

"Yes, you're right. Hey, leave now."

"Then I'm going to stay forever." Joon Hee teased right back. I kind of wished he meant it. "Why don't you two just live together?"

"I want to. But there's something I need to do first." I didn't tell him it was more than one thing. I didn't tell him there was no way Shi Won would agree to living with me. 

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That thing I had to do first--one of them anyway--was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. I had to tell my brother that I liked Shi Won and I wasn't going to back down just because he liked her, too. It was so hard to tell him. He's given up so much for me.

He told me he wasn't backing down, either. 

The text from Shi Won telling me that she was having dinner with him tonight didn't help my mood much. 

I really, really didn't want to meet this daughter of a client for my brother. But after all he's done for me, I should. I was a bit late because it took me that long to make up my mind and pull myself together somewhat. 

Before I opened that door to meet her, I called my brother and told him what was on my mind. I wanted to marry Shi Won. I tried to back off and forget her because I knew he liked her. But it didn't work and I couldn't do that anymore. He didn't say a word.

On the other side of that door there sat Shi Won, looking as shocked as I was. 

And then the text came from him.....

"I'm sorry"

He was sorry. I broke. He did give up, after all. He gave up Shi Won for me, just as he had given up so much before--all for me. As if that weren't enough to break me, I wasn't sure--deep down--who it was I loved the most, after all. If Joon Hee was a woman--no. I wouldn't want a woman to be like that. I liked a strong and vocal woman like Shi Won. But Joon Hee was everything she was not and it was so alluring. 

Here I was sitting with the woman my brother wanted, and I wasn't even sure if I really wanted her.

I broke. I cried. I sobbed. 

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No matter what I tried, Shi Won wouldn't have with me. Did she really like me at all? Sure, isn't everything, but if I already told her I want to marry her, why won't she give it to me? 

The day that Joon Hee was moving out finally came. As we stood there, uncomfortably, my heart hurt so bad. It hurt as much as the day 7 years ago when I found out that my brother liked Shi Won. 

"Do well on your test. If you get promoted, don't forget to treat me." He said, looking as sad as I felt. His hand on my shoulder felt so different than any time he had touched me in the past. It wasn't because he was touching me differently, it was because I was thinking of him differently than ever before.

"Joon Hee." 

We kept glancing at each other, looking away when our gazes met. There was barely a foot of space between us. 

"Bye." He said, eventually and started to walk away. 

I couldn't. I couldn't just let him go like that.

"Joon Hee."

He stopped, but didn't turn around to face me. I walked close, hugging him from behind. Why did it suddenly feel right?

"Let's have dinner together later." I think of the stupidest things to say. I couldn't let go of him. The truck containing his belongings was waiting for him right outside. I had a promotion test to take. But I couldn't let go of him. 

Shi Won. Joon Hee.

How...how was I supposed to decide?

My readers sick of short chapters yet? Sorry. I wanted to end here because this marks the end of material from the kdrama and the beginning of my own material. I'm nervous but hoping it goes well. :)

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