I walked to school alone. I didn't want to walk with Rain and i didn't want to walk with Mir. It'd just be awkward. I sighed and put in my headphones, playing a song on my ipod. I want to know what Mir is thinking. I know what I'm doing is probably wrong but i need to know his feelings. I've been through so much pain for nothing. I'm confused.

Mir says he doesn't want me to give up on him but he also doesn't want us to be together because 'he doesn't like guys.' Its ridiculous. Why can't he open his heart to me? I just need to know if i should give up on him or wait for him. My heart is too fragile. I'm tough on the outside, not the inside. I could feel a tear rolling down my eye. . Why am i crying? I'm Lee Joon, i don't cry.

"Joon?" I turned around and saw Cheondung. His eyes widened. "Joon are you crying?!" He said loudly. Everyone stopped and stared at me. "Cheondung you bastard!" I ran off but he followed. I pushed opened a classroom door and just sat on the table. I couldn't hold back the tears. I've been holding them back for too long now.

"Joon? What's wrong?" Cheondung entered the classroom. "I don't want this anymore.." I said quietly. He sat on the chair in front of me. "Want what?" I sighed and wiped my tears. "The pain in here" I said pointing to my heart. "It hurts Cheondung.. A lot. I don't know how to get rid of it." Cheondung looked a bit confused. "Your heart's hurting? Wae? What happened?"

"Mir.." I managed to say. "Mir?" I nodded. "When he says he'll never like me and that he hates me... my heart hurts. When i see him upset, my heart dies. I.. don't know what to do. I figured that i probably like him but it shouldn't bother me this much should it? A simple crush is just killing me" I said. Cheondung sighed. "Joon, I never thought I'd say this but.. i think you're in love"

I dried my eyes with sleeve of my jumper. "What? Love? I've never loved anyone, not even my own mother" I said. Its true. The on