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I believe in you.Your's Pov:
The doorbell rang when I was rubbing my grandmother's leg. I did not feel like going to the door, thinking that it must be some salesman trying to promote a new kind of 'super' vacuum cleaner. But Grandmother pointed to the door and nodded her head.
I got her signal and went to the door. The moment I opened the door, my eyeballs nearly dropped out and I bit my teeth hard. It was L.Joe's omma. She was expressionless, staring at me as if I had just done something wrong.
I knew there were only two reasons on why she had come: Either it was good news or bad news about L.Joe. Judging from her red eyes, I knew it had to be bad news.
"Min Young." She started and I began to wonder how she got my address. But I knocked that thought off and concentrated on her. "This is from L.Joe." She passed me a white enveloped.
"He said if anything happened to him, I must give you this letter." I felt the letter with my fingers. It's over. “If he still doesn't wake up next week, I'm cutting off the life support."
I stared at the envelope for I dared not look at L.Joe's omma. I closed my eyes and waited for her to say something. But she kept quiet. So I nodded, said good-bye to her and slammed the door shut.
"If he still doesn't wake up next week, I'm cutting off the life support."
Was this the guy who had told me a joke about a matchstick that scratched its head then died? Was this the guy who told me that he would always be my sunshine? Was this the guy whom I loved deeply?
My grandmother made her way slowly to her room. She was singing some old Korean song which I did not understand. I jumped onto the sofa, switched on the lamp and tore the envelope open gently.
Was this guy L.Joe?
Omona. My tears came again, and I knew they would keep on falling unless I drifted into oblivion.
L.Joe's Pov:
"Dear Min Young,
As I am writing this letter, a freezing remorse is washing inside my body. The ward is serene, and only in this quietness that I can fill my thought on this piece of paper. I regretted so many things yet I can do nothing now. I should have, yet I did not. Min Young , what I wanted to tell you is that I love you, nando saranghaeyo.
Since the day I first talked to you, I told myself that I must not fall in love with you. As we got closer, I continued to tell myself that I did not love you. I held your hand, I cried when you cried, I smiled when you smiled, but still, I told myself: No, I don't love you.
I must not love you, for I may leave this world anytime. But just now, someone told me meaningful. I was taking a rest in the park when i saw an old man in his seventies. We chatted, and he said this to me: "In love, either you love, or you don't."
It was then I remember the day when I walked you home. A frail old lady, also in her seventies, chatted with me. Somehow, our conversation also ended with this sentence, "In love, either you love, or you don't."
In love, either I love you or I don't. Min Young, I have been thinking. I had been trying not to
love you, but still, it boils down to this single sentence: Saranghaeyo
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My message. My SMS messages. I know you have not deleted it. Go decode it. If you're reading this letter, I must be in coma. But I just want to tell you, Min Young, I just want to tell you how much I love you.
Just wait for me if I'm in coma. I'll be back. Peel an apple for me; I'll be still having it. This letter will be my motivation to wake up.
Wait for me. Wait for the sunshine. Wait for the clouds to clear. Wait. For. Me.
L.Joe.
I will wait for you L.Joe... So jebalyo... Please be back, please wake up, don't you want to see my laugh? Don't you make a promise to me? Don't we make a promise by crossing out fingers? So jebalyo L.Joe... Please wake up.. I believe you...
Your's Pov:
Someone once said that time would dry the tears. It has been a month, yet my tears kept on dropping whenever I saw him.
L.Joe had been going on a glucose diet for the past thirty days. I tried talking to him everyday, singing to him every week but still, he did not move.
Where're the promises you made to me?
If I had one of the abilities of God, I would have chosen to relive my past, and slowly, tenderly, treasuring every single hour, minutes and second with you. Every single moment with you...
But it was too late. All too late.
I laid my head onto the side of his bed. It had been an exhausting day for me. I had to hand up all my tutorials today and I was going to a tough economics test the following day. It had been a long while since I had a good night's sleep.
The moment I closed my eyes, I drifted into a deep sleep. In my sleep, I forgot everything and dived into a beautiful dream. I was crowded bus. A masculine voice capture my attention.
"Hey, hello!"
I glanced up, looking for someone. A guy had just boarded the bus, and he was smiling at me. I smiled back instantly, feeling an urge to walk to him. He squeezed pas everybody in the bus and stood just beside me.
"Hello!"
He yelled although he was just beside me. I laughed, but still I said nothing, as if a force was sealing my mouth.
"Annyeong Min Young!"
Somehow, I felt a familiarity in this scene. Even the voice sounded familiar. I took a very deep breath and regained control of myself. I looked around with my tired body and saw myself in the ward.
"Hello. Where's my peeled apple?"
The images had just been a dream, but the voice were reality...
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